wish upon a star

2011-01-07T21:57:00.002+08:00

some things i've already said so many times that i dun feel like saying anymore...and anyway i get the feeling u're not interested in listening to what i have to say...my nightmares sound very mild and i may joke about them, but by telling u about them i'm actually trying to tell u my insecurities...

u know, i started eating pills knowing about the possible side effects, but what i din expect was u (who were the main reason i'm even eating them) laughing at my pimples, poking them even knowing they are painful. why do u have to do such things sometimes?

i know sometimes maybe my fears are unreasonable...but how about listening to me for once instead of just saying that i'm "jealous"? if i'm jealous, it's cos during term time, u spend more time with ur friends than me. u said friends 40% and gf 60%? i highly doubt so...

when sch starts, u have lessons with them...eat meals with them...go out and have fun with them...okay sure. projects time, u start spending even more time doing projects with them. exams time, u start spending ur time with them studying. so where do i come into the picture?

u know, my mum said before that when she was giving birth to my sis, her father-in-law asked my father (his son, her husband) to accompany her to the hospital. he refused but eventually went reluctantly, cos he wanted to go jalan jalan with his friends instead, while his wife is giving birth to their eldest child alone. i dun want that to happen to me...for my closest one to be with his friends or not even around when i need him.

i dun want to always be the last u know...maybe i'm being unreasonable, but cant u just reassure me and put up with me instead of brushing me off? i guess one should always learn to be independent...dun rely on ur close ones to console u, cos they are most likely to be the ones who made u down in the first place.

why do i feel so different from when we first started out? i was actually quite happy all along, until these little things started adding up...yeah u said u haven seen ur friends for very long...u realise it was just 1-2months at most? and u actually chatted while i was wondering what was taking u so long to collect some notes...yeah i know she's very good, helped u printed notes and even brought them to ur house...but to continue chatting like i din exist, while i was waiting?

if ur friends can get more attention and time from u, i think i would rather be ur friend. at least then i would be more important.

2010-07-18T23:56:00.004+08:00

since i haven really updated in so long, shall blog a list of interesting events for my own reference so that i wont forget...xD

4th june: went for ktv at clementi...haven gone for so long! as usual their food (i think it was some chicken cutlet rice...) was not that nice... :x

5th june: met the forum ppl for the first time today and we went to the Hangout! wanted to book the biggest room but turned out it was already booked by celine and scandal dar they all for their l4d outing...x.x but nvm, everyone seemed quite nice! :D

8th june: watched furry vengence at lot1 with xw and ww...i thought we were watching marmaduke and i only realised we were supposed to watch furry vengence when we were going in hahaha...the movie wasnt very nice though...was expecting more cartoons rather than real-ppl... :x after that we went to ajisen for dinner (YAY my volcano~ xD)

11th june: went to play bball at sembawang with ww...he say cos the courts there got less ppl...but turned out his "less ppl" was actually quite alot of ppl! -.- so we ended up walking around...looking for less crowded courts...in the end we ended up somewhere near woodlands...and the reason why there wasnt so many ppl there was cos the court was very dusty! i dun know why...x.x

12th june: had a very fun time at sentosa with the forum ppl! haven been there in so long...first time putting on sunblock...SPF 130~! :D but it was really super hot from 2-4...even the sand was scorching hot! but had a fun time playing with the water and sand...attempts to play volleyball and other ball games except captain's ball was a failure in my opinion cos...too many of us din know how to play hahaha...

after a tired and sweaty day at sentosa we went to some hawker centre near vivo city to eat dinner...the prawn mee was very nice! then we went looking for places to sit and play games...played alot of stupid games and it was very fun to play in a group! xD

15th june: hands were feeling very itchy after not playing l4d for so long so i went to park lane to play l4d with xin, ww and sharn...had pepper lunch which they all said was smelly...D: but nvm i like jiu can liao! went to the new lan shop called volcano (haha seems like alot of things i like are called volcano! :x) overall the environment there not bad, just that same as other lan shops in park lane, u would start to smell cigarette smoke when certain inconsiderate ppl actually smoke right outside the lan shop...-.-

18th june: went to play squash at serangoon with ww...he wanted to bring my to chomp chomp but it was too crowded and we couldnt find any seats so we ended up eating at a nearby hawker centre...then had to travel quite long to the squash place and we lost our way cos we alighted at the wrong stop... :x that place was quite okay though, at least we saw other ppl playing...xD the uncle even asked me how come i live jurong but i come so far to play! x.x

19th june: went to meet the forum ppl for jubeat at iluma...wa all suddenly so addicted hahaha...but really hate going there on weekends loh, still have to wait for our turns! but had a really good time playing bball and air hockey...xD

22nd: not enough l4d the last time...so went to l4d again with ww, xin dar and terry at clementi~ those indecisive ppl couldnt decide where they wanted to eat dinner so we ended up eating at the cheese place at cityvibe...i felt that the curry chicken rice was okay though but for some reason the guys keep complaining next time dun eat that liao... :x

25th: happy day with toy story 3d at jurong point...went to eat my long-awaited claypot chicken noodles for dinner after the movie...why so small bowl~~the movie itself was not bad, perhaps cos i had no expectations since i din watch the first 2 movies..the 3d effects were not very obvious but still watched 3d cos someone never watch 3d before...like so suagu! :x

26th: went to ww's house to play resident evil and see the hamsters...supposed to be play resident evil lah, but in the end i had more fun playing street fighter...the resident evil is so nice when playing on ps3 cos i kept forgetting what buttons to press~if using pc i confirm wont die at first stage loh hahaha

2nd july: went all the way to boon keng to play squash (cos there are no squash courts near jurong! -.-) it was raining and luckily i brought an umbrella...but i still ended up half wet cos somebody not pro at holding umbrella...then we travelled all the way to old turf city to eat the chong pang steamboat mentioned in the last post...did i mention that it was freezing cold the whole day cos it was raining!

3rd july: went ww's house again to watch the korean drama Full House and cooked spaghetti...it was the first time i had spaghetti with bacon, sausages and luncheon meat! omg by the time cook finish already starve to death liao haha...but nvm since i was just the assistant nia and not the head chef...i think i forgot how come we started watching Full House, but the starting was quite boring...their voices all sounded super weird...after that we went to amk to watch eclipse, the movie itself was abit disappointed cos it felt like there wasnt alot of actions leh..like the book had alot of details and seemed very happening, yet in the movie it seemed like everything just sort of...flew past? x.x hope the last one would be better...

6th july: went to amk again to watch 9temples, it talked alot about karma and stuff...abit confusing though so perhaps it wasnt so nice for a horror movie... =/ there's really nothing to do at amk hub! no nice food to try...

9th july: saw celine's yummy porridge pic on her fb so i asked her where was it...then she and cyrius offered to take us there...their you tiao is also very nice and super cripsy! yum yum...ate till very full but since it was half water so got hungry very fast...oh yeah we din know what to do after eating so we went l4d (yeah again...). after playing i felt a bit hungry but i din say anything cos i thought i was the only one...but then cyrius suggested going to eat! YAY~ see, normal ppl digest very fast one...u all then are the weird ones loh...both say dun want eat..in the end both end up cant resist the temptation muahahaha!

went to eat supper at some place near orchard (which is also near ohsho, the jap place which i like to go...) the chicken rice was really delicious...haven tried chicken rice with rice that are not just plain white rice...then we all very nice went to pei ww wait for his bus before we take taxi home..in the end waited for more than 30mins till 130am the bus still not here! after we left he still dare to say the bus came right after we left...that's so ungrateful! :x

10th july: went for klunch at clementi kbox, conclusion is that the food for klunch is much better than other timeslots...their chicken rice was so yummy that i started thinking why there wasnt more rice...after that went to meet the forum ppl at jurong point again to watch despicable me, haven had a group outing for so long! really wanted to go eat the claypot again, but ended up eating swenson's omelette...the movie was very funny, i would suggest u all to go watch it too... :D

13th july: finally managed to get a buyer for lappie with ww's help...just when i was wondering when i can get rid of it! x.x then we went to clarke quay to look for my jap maggi mee which i had a craving for...but unfortunately couldnt find the ones i was looking for...went to try out some ramen shop also, cost $60+ for 2 ppl...in my opinion i felt that it was abit too ex, can get the same things which taste better at half the price at ohsho! :x

14th july: went to ww's house to continue watching Full House...not even halfway through~still got two-thirds more...din intend to eat ajisen actually, but i fell asleep when watching and then i woke up with a craving for ajisen...so we went to eat before i went to work...this was the lian qing qing day...LOL :x

15th july: met ww for dinner...had some time before that so we went bukit panjang plaza to walk walk first...meanwhile i saw mac's poster! the spicy nuggets are back! muahaha i have been waiting for them for so long..wo deng ni men hao jiu le...lai come come let me eat! xD then we went back to jurong...recommended ww to the fishball mee which i always eat, but i feel that it tastes better when u eat from the box hahaha...

16th july: was very sian that i had to work on fri night..but luckily cathay got this promotion, buy one ticket get one free when watching movies 1-9am at orchard cineleisure...so went home after work, then chiong to orchard to eat supper at mac (woohoo spicy nuggets AGAIN) then watch movie...the blood pledge was...as the reviews said, predictable, but doesnt mean that i din get scared hahaha...after that reached home at around 4+am even though i had to wake up at 7am the next day to help out...nvm cos i was planning to sleep after i reach home all the way till i have to wake up to meet ww...

17th july: but in the end my ma last min dragged me to go play mj with my aunts! but nvm since we played 20-40 cents and i ended up winning $40++... $_$ then chiong back to meet ww go da bao dinner and meet celine and cyrius for mj again...played till i was really falling asleep haha...wanted to at least finish watching guess guess guess but couldnt keep my eyes open...

18th july: was dying in the office and starving to death but din have appetite to eat...then suddenly ww showed up with fishball mee hahaha...thanks ah i was very touched... xD

finally an update! (after 3 months...)

2010-07-02T23:21:00.005+08:00

i really planned to blog about my birthday celebrations... :x but since the pics have been up on facebook for so long, i guess u all can guess how i celebrated it right~? xD for zigang celebration please proceed to www.facebook.com... :D

the zi gang came over to the office (again) on tue cos i was working and we had to pass izu her birthday present...i din get to watch them give it to her cos i was teaching! x.x

i should really resume blogging regularly...went to Chong Pang BBQ steamboat place today, it was originally at Boon Keng but it moved to Turf City 2 years ago...and apparently it's going to shift again soon in August~ just when i thought i finally "found" it again...x.x

some similarities from the last time i tried (i think it was 3-4 years ago...):

-still a wide variety of cooked/raw food

-still the same kind of pot

-the oil still splatters like mad when u grill food...

and some differences...:

-somehow not as crowded as i remember...and on friday night dinnertime somemore! :x

-dun know why they only have chicken soup base...u have to pay extra $1 for tom yam soup paste! (yeah not even the SOUP, it's the PASTE...x.x)

my friends would know i like sausages and luncheon meat like i'm obsessed with them...but that place dun have luncheon meat!! D: nvm i shall ~~take my revenge~~ enjoy myself with the sausages! xD

only ate their mee goreng (quite nice, not too dry and not too oily), fried rice (very nice, just that i wish the peas/corns/carrots would disappear) and their...bee hoon which somebody took but only ate one mouth and stopped after declaring that it's very nan chi...-.-

fries, sausages (yum yum!), black pepper chicken, spicy chicken and BBQ sauce chicken...the spicy chicken met the same fate as the bee hoon, while i personally liked the BBQ chicken...xD the chicken soup is quite nice though, but it eventually became veggie soup too HAHAHAHA... :x

giving the bu shuang look while cooking sausages...(okok i would cook my own sausages! dun need look like i forced u to cook! x.x)

eventually...i got so sick of eating sausages...and someone still had the audacity to say usually his friends cook for him but eat with me still have to cook!! okay nvm i cook...just dun complain when u have diarrhea the next day! :x

*hehheh i've done my duty and updated my blog...xD

2010-04-05T19:14:00.001+08:00

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there ..... for me ...

2010-03-18T15:08:00.002+08:00

for those who haven watched kaiji yet but are intending to, spoilers ahead! x.x

i was expecting it to be the story of a gambler, winning money in the casino or something in all the different types of games. but it turned out to be entirely different. it was only at the end of the movie that i realised the main point of the show was on japan's credit card debts.

kaiji was scammed into boarding a ship, a place where he was told he can change his life if he won. to be frank, i din expect him to be cheated by the other guy (cant even remember his name LOL) but that just shows how naive i was. good for him that in the end he found the other simple guy who cooperated with him. unfortunately for both of them, the other guy had one more card left which he overlooked and sadly this was to be a major turning point in both their lives.

to us, the audience, everything underground looked so clear. we wonder why the characters inside dun see it the same way we do. but try putting ourselves in the same postion, and i'm not sure that we wont do the same too. no wonder it was called the brave men's road cos it really required courage.

it required massive amount of luck and courage to finish walking across that bridge. a line in the movie really touched me "he fell down silently, (his name, i forgot), the coward, actually fell down without making a sound. he fell down without making a sound so that i wont panick". another guy, sahara-san. that one was just pure unlucky...and partly fate too that he wont make it. he finished walking across, only to fail at the last part...

i really wonder how he can still remain so calm after seeing 9 of his friends fall down one by one. the ways ppl always try to screw one another over...tells u alot about human nature. but then, there are also unexpected pleasant twists that make u think "hm, maybe we shouldnt end in 2012".

the final E-card game was exciting, though i was wondering all the while how he was going to make a come-back until the last round. it was so obvious that he did not change the cards, but only wanted to make the bad guy think so. do u seriously think he would have let u seen it if he really intended to swop the cards? =/ anyway, the one with the simple mind would win simply cos he did not bother to scheme and plot the other's downfall.

personally feel that the ending was lousy though, even though it fits in with the entire theme. HOW CAN THAT WOMAN DO THAT!! no wonder she's still single at 39 HAHAHA. :x

all in all, not what i expected but definitely not as bad as some of the reviews made it sound. xDDDD

2010-03-17T09:50:00.002+08:00

u think reading someone's private msn chat logs is funny? someone who trusted u enough to let u use her laptop without "supervising" u? perhaps that was my mistake, trusting someone i dun know well too much. dun worry, it wont happen again.

and to think i thought it was over, i din realise the extent to which u read. everyone's and everything isnt it? using whatever u saw as evidence for some crime i supposedly commited? even if i did, what right do u have to condemn me? and mind u, they were meant to be PRIVATE chatlogs. not that u understand the meaning of that word anyway. for u, anything about u is private. anything other than that, others' privacy, all are not private.

this would be the last time i ever trusted someone blindly.

updates on The Hangout!

2010-03-08T16:11:00.002+08:00

clarified some of my doubts with the owner already (if u dun know what i'm talking about refer to the previous post) and he said that there's a package that includes meal/dessert/popcorn/drinks and console/board games! meaning that u can switch between playing console games and board games. it's $19 per person for 2 hours of gaming, includes 1 main course, free flow of drinks and popcorn, and also dessert! xD extension would be at $4.50 per hour per person, do let me know how many of u would be free on that day so that i can make reservations for the vip room okay! :D (if u think it's too ex then u can take the other packages which do not include meal, or which only allows u console or board gaming xD)

birthday plans!

2010-03-08T00:07:00.003+08:00

i've came up with a full birthday plan when just last night i din have a clue at all! xD

meeting @ anytime from 12-1 (depends on eating lunch or not)

2pm-6pm: go this place called The Hangout for console/board games. it's near dhoby/cathay.

then 6pm to around 9 or 10 go mala steamboat at xian de lai! xDDD

after that late night ktv at kbox...

-details for the hangout at http://www.thehangout.com.sg/assets/downloads/the-hangout-packages.pdf and http://www.thehangout.com.sg/#/about-us

-all expenses paid by urself!

-no doraemon birthday cake please...

-should be either on saturday 22nd may or 29th may...

wishlist!

1. sponsorship for tw trip

2. doraemon mj set!

3. ...will add more when free... (samsung pixon 12 should be on the list loh but since i'm buying it myself soon...)

will be creating a fb event nearer the day, do let me know if u're not free so i can adjust the dates and make the necessary arrangements... :DDDD

2010-03-01T00:09:00.002+08:00

可以遇到一个你喜欢，而他也喜欢你的人真的不容易，一旦找到了就不要轻易的放开手。看过身边朋友的经历，发现实在不应该为了一些争吵就放弃。

人的一生中有很多无可奈何的事，不管你多么想去改变，不管你多么希望重来，不管你要的是什么，都无法确定能够得到。

有一些看起来很理所当然的事或人，也许突然间就消失了。

现在才知道原来强颜欢笑这么难，明明心里不好受，却还要像一个傻瓜一样的笑，只为了不想让人为难。。。

好奇怪，好像走到哪里都会突然看的你的影子，然后自然反应就是躲开。

喜欢一个人不需要理由，更不会是因为一些所谓的暗示。

张惠妹-如果你也听说
作曲:周杰伦填词:李焯雄
监制:崔炎德, Evi Yang
编曲:Adrian Chan
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还不想回家的我
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许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
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想你更多
如果你也听说
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像普通旧朋友
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好多好多的话想对你说
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要怎么附和
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如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温热
张惠妹-如果你也听说
许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我想我宁可都沉默
其实反而显得做作
夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多
如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何
如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温热
如果你也听说
有没有想过我
像普通旧朋友
还是你依然会心疼我
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你会想到什么

2010-02-16T00:55:00.005+08:00

in a way i'm more disappointed rather than angry cos i really wasnt expecting it. there are some friends, u know that sometimes they go out without u, without even asking u. so okay, i've learnt to accept that, cos u cant possibly like everyone in the group to go out with them on a regular basis. but it disappoints me to learn the hard way that even those u treat as ur good friends, they can do this to u too.

not saying that good friends cant go out with other ppl, that they cant have life that doesnt include u. but when both parties are ur friends and one of them is ur good friend, the feeling is different. u can apologise, u can explain, but everything is different. not being petty, but seems like i still have alot to learn. Each for himself. that's what i learnt from u today.

i thought i'm already immune. i thought those i treat as friends treat me as their friends too. and i seriously thought the same of my good friends. perhaps all the while i've been 自作多情, going around sticking my hot face into ppl's cold butts. 有些人真的不需要在乎。

我学乖了...

first post of the year~

2010-01-25T23:12:00.008+08:00

yay i'm back after i decided to "renovate" my blog...new year, new layout with new songs and new tagboard! :D (i'm supposed to update on how i spent my christmas and new year but i seriously doubt i can still remember everything i wanted to say... :X)

breakfast on christmas day at fish and co! ordered a basket of fries even though i already had fish and chips...

and as usual i din manage to finish the fish...and cos i was too greedy i din finish the fries either! :X

after eating we went to cathay to watch alvin and the chipmunks...the girl chipmunks were super cute! xDDD but hoh i sort of forgot the storyline for part1 already so... :X then we chiong-ed to xiandelai steamboat place (which sis recommended and which is quite popular online too) and were too early for our reservation! :X

(just realised i forgot to change the orientation of the photos before i uploaded them! but considering i have to wake up at 6am tmr for class and i already spent so long uploading them i'm sure it's not too hard to turn ur heads and look at all the yummy ~~raw~~ food right! :D)

the amount of food that we started with...

yummy! duck-something soup and my mala soupbase! xDDD

the following pics actually dun mean anything much, just to show our progress at eating the food :X

just look at all the food floating around inside! dun u just feel hungryyyyyyyy @@

okay only abit more to go~ jiayou jiayou eat!

even though there were still food left...cant take it liao! faster zao before they charge us any extra fees... x.x

then chionged (again) to clementi to party world with xin dar, sharn, kint, celine, scandal dar (i hope i din forget anyone...? if i did, blame it on the time! x.x) exchanged gifts and got Q-毛, so named cos he has curly hair...hurhur. (AND DUN KNOW HOW MANY PPL SNATCHED SO MUCH HAIR OFF HIM LATER HE BALD THEN U ALL KNOW AH D:)

Q-毛 with xin dar's...round-with-a-heart thingy... :X

cant remember much what happened after that...scandal dar and kint left early (somehow the only memory of late-night clementi i have is of all the cockroaches running around and all the spit on the floor...)

then on new year eve me mh and celine went to clementi (supposed to go lan first de loh but no space...) to buy supplies for steamboat (yes i'm addicted! xD) then went to his house to rot...turned out we din have much time to rot actually LOL. started preparing the food and after preparing started eating liao so no time to take pic...but it was nice! hohoho at least we could eat halfway and go watch tv to cool down...

count down at mh's house (although it was a very very non-exciting event LOL!) we just watched the tv and there was no cheering even when they counted down... -.- then we abandoned mh (:X) and went to scandal dar's house to (what else? scandal lah! :D) have a sleepover, supposed to watch movies but we ended up playing audi and freezing the movie...lolol. and i dun know why in a sleepover ppl dun actually sleep...

then around 7 we went down to mac for breakfast...it was fate that i just nice saw the newspaper that mac was selling doraemon charms! MUAHAHAHA just nice when they started i buy nia...hurhurhur. xDDD after eating i was basically half-dead all the way home liao...(not like celine was much better HAHAHA)

tw trip...?

2009-12-14T14:34:00.006+08:00

just decided to go to taiwan after my 21st birthday so have to start saving now...x.x checking up on accomodations, tickets, places to go and transport~i can do my shopping there and dun have to wait for shipping! xD then can go try their mala steamboat...doraemon stuff...night markets...xDDD

so starting from now i shall be very broke...

ANYONE WANT TO SPONSOR SOME? for the let-shuj-finally-take-a-plane fund... :X

busy weekend...x.x

2009-12-14T10:48:00.004+08:00

this weekend was so busy that i even missed my nephew's full month celebration! :( but at least i already know what pressie to buy for him...super cute ones! just wait till i get my pay... :X din even have time to check my mail...stalk blogs...go facebook... D: at least now it's relatively back to normal...went to popular bookfest after work yesterday...maybe cos it was sunday night so not that crowded...p6 chinese assessment books are still not out! but at least i found some treasures...hiak but din have time to finish looking at everything so most likely would be going there again...

okay i remember having tonnes of things to write about but now i cant remember waht they are...x.x

enlightenment...

2009-12-04T11:54:00.007+08:00

went to party world with sharn, max, jojo and ...(i dun know who! x.x not even very sure guy or girl ._.) anyway~it was very entertaining! was expecting them to go after they finish dinner but not-that-unexpectedly they only started after i reached cos they were playing lan...LOL. si sharn dun want to use mic sing (but hoh even without mic he can sing louder than all of us!!). and i'm amazed how even after the ktv session we can still stand among xiao qiang(s) and other unknows and just crap for 1hour! x.x finally reached home at 3+am and realised i cant sleep immediately cos i need to rescue my pizzas in cafe world...=/

sang a super nice song that i haven listened to for quite long...shall share it with everyone!

and now i finally know why this simple song touched me...

有些話妳選擇不對他說　妳說某種脆弱　我才感同身受
我永遠都願意當個聽眾　安慰妳的痛　保護著妳從始至終　就算妳的愛
屬於他了　就算妳的手　他還牽著　就算妳累了　我會在這

一人留　兩人疚　三人遊　悄悄的　遠遠的　或許捨不得　默默的　靜靜的　或許很值得
我還在某處守候著　說不定這也是一種　幸福的資格
至少我們中還有人能快樂　這樣就已足夠了
有些話我選擇保持沉默　別把實話說破　隱藏我的寂寞
妳的情緒依然把我牽動　躲在妳心中　角落的心事我能懂
就算妳的愛　屬於他了　就算妳的手　他還牽著　就算妳累了　我會在這

一人留　兩人疚　三人遊　悄悄的　遠遠的　或許捨不得　默默的　靜靜的　或許很值得
我還在某處守候著　說不定這也是一種　幸福的資格
至少我們中還有人能快樂　這樣就已足夠了
不知道　不知道　不知道　為什麼　為什麼　我的愛
我的愛還留不住妳的離開　都總在　等待著妳回來

一人留　兩人疚　三人遊　悄悄的　遠遠的　或許捨不得　默默的　靜靜的　或許很值得
我還在某處守候著　說不它這也是一種　得不到的　卻美好的
至少我們中還有人能快樂　這樣就已足夠了
至少我們中還有人能快樂　這樣就已經夠了

昨晚，我才终于领悟到了为什么自己一直接受不了你。没有什么特别的事发生，只是我突然明白了。
原来，我一直都想着一个人，一个我以为早就忘了，不重要的人，因为我知道我们是不可能的，况且我们交情也不算深，不是那种没有他就会死，但是没有他，明明什么都没少，却一直觉得少了什么。是能活下去，可是生命变得没有什么特别的了。

i've already made this mistake once, so i dun want to make it again. i thought i could learn to love my penpal, which was why i got together with him. but even after a few months i realised i'm wasting his time. so i'm not going to do that to u too and waste even more of ur time than those i've already wasted.

2009-11-26T00:34:00.001+08:00

went to visit nephew (and sis) today...but before that went to salon to ask about the prices, din really know got what difference between highlight and dye worh. but the worst part if cutting my long hair...i would miss uuuuuu~ D: then went to boon lay to collect my bag...the one i've been waiting for 1 month! :D then took train all the way~to eunos...qian li tiao tiao to visit baby and he falls asleep right after he finished eating and sis threw him into my arms. -.-

thanks ah for trying to bluff me that baby's playing with him when he's already sleeping! but apparently there are ways to "play with him" too one-sided...had fun poking him! must be my arms sooooo comfortable that he cant help but fall sleep...xDDD but i think he was faking sleep loh. =/ cos whenever i poke...he will open one eye to peek then close again. so...*pokes* *opens eye...sleep again* *poke somemore...* *opens eye and close again*

then when i was about to leave and went to say bye to him...i saw his eye open! (yes only 1...) but he quickly closed it again when he saw me! very cute! cos i poked him then he open his eyes...poke and open poke and open... :X *sigh* only a few more years of "cute-ness" before he grows up into naughty boy...=/

think next time i shall go again...especially during baby's "off-peak" periods where there's nobody else around! (muahaha) but i cant go for his full month cos i would be working... :(

I WANT TO PLAY L4D2!! x.x

revival of the blog...

2009-10-20T23:14:00.004+08:00

after letting my blog rot for almost a month i think it's time to revive it...but hoh not that i din want to update loh...more like at first nothing to write about then it became no time to blog these past few weeks...basically it has just been sch and work...only getting around 3-5 hours sleep every night cos too busy doing work...=/ and the worst thing is i'm working without getting paid! if u forgot to write the cheque then just admit it and tell me so when are u going to give me, dun give me some bullshit and then just hope that i'll forget about it. dun think that what u pay me is very high hoh. added to the pay coming so late every month, i'm seriously thinking of getting private tuition jobs loh. at least they take up less time with more pay and at least the pay would be on time. =/

anyway, went to scandal dar's birthday party at de coder's cafe on the 10th. it's much cheaper than minds' cafe and there's a branch in clementi too! and the games look quite fun too...just that hoh, i think it would be fun only if a large group of friends go together...x.x then last sat on the 17th, went to ECP for bbq and to celebrate xin dar's (<3),>

no movie reviews to update about since i din get the time and luxury (since i'm broke waiting for the stupid pay) to watch any movie between the last update and this...my "500 days of summer"! D: OH YEAH cant forget about this...went to chinatown before the bbq to do my singapore history assignment...was thinking of going there to do some cheap shopping de loh but in the end the prices there ALL so ex! =O to scam tourists nia loh. :X

then we discovered a whole shop filled with doraemon stuff! doraemon lovers! xD bought a file with 10 clear folders inside. felt that it was quite ex ($4 for a file) but with the clear folders inside...actually worth it lah. not to mention see already also happy! :DDD but hoh, found this doraemon soft toy that looks so sad that i just wanted to bring it home! x.x but hoh apparently the reason why it looks so sad is cos it's too ex then no one buy that's why so sad... :X

for some reason it seems like everytime i felt that things were improving, some things would happen that would make me reconsider my thoughts...

lots of spoilers!

2009-09-24T00:05:00.003+08:00

somehow ended up watching alot of movies over this past week... :X last entry i stopped at my shopping trip on fri...so on sat i went to lan at e2max at cathay...no new maps for l4d and no audi! D: went to watch 4bia 2 at 1120...x.x heng the theater was quite crowded...=/

-----------------spoilers ahead!----------------------

following the short story format of 4bia 1, the sequl has 5 short stories...the first was The Novice, where this teenager was sent to a temple in the mountains to repent after commiting an offence which resulted in the death of his father. din really understand the whole story but i felt that he committed it repeatedly thus resulting in his death...more about karma actually. if he had done what one of the other monks told him to and stayed inside the cave then perhaps he could have been saved. (this part was explained to me later...)

then the second one was The Ward, where this guy was staying overnight in a ward cos he injured his leg in a car accident and weird things started to happen when he realise the guy sharing the ward with him was on the brink of death. (just knew weird things would start to happen loh when he had to stay overnight and his family was arriving the next morning). i din understand the ending of this story...=/

the third was Backpackers. seriously i think this one can be the scariest story of all...but the make-up of the zombies abit too CMI. :X but at least i could get the logic of this one...personally i would think the next one is scarier...it's called Salvage, this woman was selling 2nd-hand cars. this part wasnt so bad, just that she lied to the customers and told them all the cars have never been in accidents before even though they ALL DID. and after she got scolded by a customer i thought she was going to stop the business...until i realised she just scolded her worker for not doing a better job of concealing the damages from the car accident. =/ basically she deserves what she got but i dun think her son deserved it...x.x

the last one In the End was meant to be a comedy more than a horror show (even though there were still scary parts...TT) the 4 guys from 4bia 1 the camping story are back again..the whole theater just kept laughing throughout this story...xDDD overall i think the first 4bia was still nicer cos after watching just the first story of that i was tempted to go home already...(cos too scary, not cos too boring or what hoh) but i managed to last till the end for 4bia 2...x.x

-----------------------end of spoilers for 4bia------------------------------

went to jp to shop for awhile on sun...wanted to find my shoes but couldnt...(okok i know i'm picky. :x) then on mon had mj game(s) with ma, sharn and mh! wanted to ~~scam~~ win their money de...won $6++ the first round but was super suay during the 2nd...heng i won a $3.20 zimo so total won $9.60 for that game...but in the end still only won 40cents nia...x.x spent 6hours earning 40 cents! omg~ sharn was the big winner...he won half a bowl of ajisen's ramen!

then after the game wanted to go imm eat ajisen (3rd time in a row...but still cant break my own record lah where i actually ate the same thing twice in a day) with sharn and mh but mh wanted to go watch movie...so we abandoned sharn and went to cathay (AGAIN)...the original plan was the eat inside the theater and to watch district 9...but in the end we ended up watching the midnight show for Gamer and went to eat ajisen at plaza sing... -.-

----------------more spoilers...-----------------------

basically the concept was of a game where humans can control other humans who are convicts with a death sentence...they get to choose whether to wait for their sentence or they can choose to become slayers (who have to fight battles) and they can go free as soon as they manage to survive 30 battles...so there was one guy who managed to survived till almost the end, but cos he knew some dark secret of the creator so the creator was out to ensure that he could not make it out. in the end, even though there was an unexpected twist at the end, i felt that the ending was too sudden and easy...got so easy die de meh?? ._.

---------------------end of 2nd spoiler....-----------------------

yesterday went to jp for foc manicure and pedicure again...wanted to try out some darker colours and i decided that the theme for the day was metallic...lol but too bad the first colour i chose was out of stock...x.x and hoh, i think the service there was really... =/ kept asking me to buy this buy that...want rest in peace also cant... =( no wonder sis gave up going there...but hoh, still got 2 times de mani/pedi left, 1 treatment and 6 whatever-it-is left...=/ i think the next time i go would be christmas liao...

after that wanted to ask someone if he wanted to watch The Ugly Truth at jp...cos i was looking through the reviews then i think the movie would be quite nice...but in the end din and went to try out the party world at clementi...got promo leh $11.80++ each for at least 2 ppl...can choose any 4hours between 11-7...sang alot of new songs...xDDD sang till no voice liao. x.x then went home to mjmj...(AGAIN :X)

then today went to cathay (yes again again...x.x) to watch The Ugly Truth. even when it had ended i still felt like i haven gotten enough...but it's a good movie for cynics like me! cos many thigns that they mentioned were things that i have actually thought about too...could sort of expect the ending even right at the start le but it was how they got there that was important...most of the time, we are actually just looking for someone who fits into our checklist...so even when we've already found "The One", we would reject him/her on the basis that "oh but he doesnt have this this this quality which is a must-have on my checklist..."

men are visual creatures. i dun know how many times i have heard this phrase already...and yeah i dun think they can last long if this really happened in real life. =/ cos the guy would just keep looking/"admiring" other women even when he's out with the girl...yeah in fairy tales the guy would say something like "i have no place for other women cos u're the only one i see" etc etc but that wont happen de loh...guys are always looking for better ones, especially i dun know why some would just like to sms/use their phones even when out with other ppl (i koped this from the forums but i think it makes sense loh.) at least show some respect mah...u mean u rather play with ur phone all the time than to be with whoever u're with at that time? then why bother asking them out...

and some who just liked to keep talking about others...looking around for ppl they know...is whoever that's beside u really just so boring that u need to constantly look around for others u can talk to...? =/

anyway~really felt like nodding my head in agreement to many things that they said in the movie...the quote i got for this movie..."Men are simple". no wonder it's NC16 for sexual references...some "references" are over so fast that i din even have time to think about what they meant... ._.

my shopping trip today...

2009-09-18T22:15:00.003+08:00

was very un-fruitful initially lolol. went with celine to far east plaza (before that we went to clementi for lan) and spent 3+hours walking around the entire place...my goal was mainly bag + shoes + skirt/pants, but in the end i only ended up buying one super-cute panda tshirt. :X whereas celine spent $100++ on 1 bottom and 4 tops...x.x saw alot of cute and nice things! but i think like celine said, i'm just too picky. =/ i wont buy something unless it matches at least 80% with what i had in mind...x.x

so after that met up with sis at the same place to go trim eyebrows (seems like far east plaza is the place with alot hair salons, beauty salons etc...O.O) and i was expecting it to be something painless and fast...sis din warn me it would be painful until literally the last min. D: heng the pain is still something i can tahan...and i think i was too tired from the shopping cos i almost fell asleep for real. :X then we were supposed to go to takashimaya to buy the eyebrow pencil etc. but on the way there we walked past this very very cute and nice makeup shop called Etude House. so we went in...and spent a very long time inside (and it was so crowded!)

my loot...the eyebrow pencil + colour that sis bought for me from the face shop =)

the powder foundation i bought at Etude House...look at the nice nice box!! xD

the free gift i got...i think it was either a poster of gu jun pyo or the BB cream...suddenly hearing alot such terms nowadays...i guess cos ppl in forums are talking about these too. o.o apparently it's supposed to be as good as having make up on without actually having it on...LOL. :X

and what i personally think should be voted best buy of the day...first time i saw such thing but i decided to buy it within 3mins of seeing it! (and sis actually said i'm more decisive than her HAHAHA) it's teardrop powder... :DDDD

now both sis and celine have said i'm picky... =( oh well. i think i shall postpone buying jacket, bag and maybe more makeup stuff till next month...so this month i only have to find my shoes urgently... xD i think i just finished up one year's quota of shopping today... x.x

shopping shopping!

2009-09-17T19:42:00.002+08:00

okay finally bought my wallet...in the end the design i bought isnt the one that i've been thinking about for 2months...x.x but it's still very nice! and since i couldnt decide between the long one or the short one...(no i din buy both -.-) i bought a medium one! :D and it was only after i put it in my bag that i realised it looks like it came in a set with my phone...O.O less than 24hours after owning it and i already managed to get ink stains on it. D: and just cos i'm buying pink things doesnt mean i dun like blue anymore...cos wallet shop dun have nice blue female wallets! x.x

and my shopping spree has just started...on the look-out for cheap cheap yet nice things...shoes is a must...bag i would buy if i can find cheap and nice one...and more clothes! :X plus perhaps make-up if sis can teach me how to use...xD finally the hols are here! yay 1 week of relative rotting at home doing nothing! :D

list of things to do...
1. shopping shopping~
2. watch movies...? o.o
3. go k box!
4. uh...play lan and arcade? :X

shopping shopping~

2009-09-10T02:51:00.002+08:00

it's amazing how it's still days to payday and i've already been fantasizing about going shopping for more than a week. :X I WANT CHEAP NICE AND COMFORTABLE things (wallet, jacket, bag, shoes, clothes etc) so dun bring me to weird and ex places hoh! like someone said..."nice and ex things who dun know how to find? it's finding the nice and cheap things that's hard loh..." xD just nice payday week should be the same as the mid-term break...time to go k! :D many many new songs~

my list...
1. wallet (i think i made up my mind already...xD but need to see whether the price is the same as what i remember :X)

2. shoes (for some reason, every time i go out with the intention to buy a certain kind of shoes, i would buy a different kind. hopefully this time would be different...=/)

3. clothes (blouses, 1 skirt, 1 shorts and 1 long pants? assuming i have enough money... :x)

these are the priority stuff i guess...first month i get to spend/save my paycheck and not have to pay sch fees/buy textbooks or whatever...x.x

mj and lan outings anyone? follow-up from sharn's blog... :D anyone willing to ~~be scammed~~ join...? xD and just nice worh mj and lan both need 4 ppl...

@celine: and hoh, my life these few weeks has been so boring that if i wrote about what happened everyday it would really be just about sch work. ._.

final destination 4 (spoilers ahead! :X)

2009-08-30T23:56:00.003+08:00

dun freaking say one thing and do another.

went to watch FD4 at cathay yesterday with hl...was late cos somehow we both met up late. :X dun know why he live near cck in the end still later than me...==" then on the bus ride there really talked crap alot...i intro-ed him to cathay's super nice fish and chips and sweet popcorn! :D yesterday's was somehow especially nice cos it was slightly burnt and sweeter than normal! xD yumyum~ was late for the movie AGAIN (dun know why always miss the openings...x.x) and i realise thrillers/horror movies are really nicer in 3D! it's like the effects are so real and so near u... :X

basically the first few deaths were sort of unexpected, yet after some thinking u would realise that actually they COULD happen, they are not totally impossible, it's just that it's very hard to get a string of coincidences like this. the first death that i managed to remember is the guy in the swimming pool, dun know why the suction thing (hl tried to explain the science of it to me but my science really really cmi...=/) can suck up the guy's lungs/liver...so disgusting. at that point in time i was actually thinking..."heyyyy i can watch a gory movie and eat fish and chips at the same time! :D" (dun u think the fish and chips looked like the liver/lungs...?)

the part where i really started to pay attention was the one at the shopping mall and they were watching a movie...while trying to escape the female lead got caught in the escalator and somehow she vomitted blood when her leg got caught in the wheels...O.O and the male lead had to look on while she got grinded to death... ._.lll but anyway he realised it was only a vision, in the end he *thought* they managed to break the chain, but 2 weeks later they were in a cafe when suddenly a truck or something crashed into them...

at this point the graphics turned into something cool! :D it showed the skeleton view of how each of the 3 ppl left died...the girl got every bone (i think) from her skull onwards, to her ribcage etc broken by the wheels. the female lead got her neck cleanly snapped off while the male lead somehow banged into the wall and broke his skull and teeth...o.o so basically, this movie is recommended if u're in a sadist mood and best is not to eat anything other than popcorn...=)

was supposed to go rot at mac for horror movie marathon... but we walked past dhoby and got tempted to l4d...AGAIN. x.x saw some new map names so we thought got new maps...but actually all are alternate names for those we have already played or are incomplete...=/ nvm think i shall cut down (cut down =/= totally stop worh!) the time spent on l4d...maybe next time try advanced for new maps? :D

shopping/wishlist

2009-08-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

suddenly thought of a list of things that i want to get...x.x shall write them down before i forget and buy when i get my next pay since i shouldnt have to pay any bills/fees next month! :D

1. Baby- G watch. think i had a pink one before and lost it...=(
2. Doraemon Japanese book for learning Jap. tried to find it before but my sensei said he specially ordered it from Japan...D:
3. clothes/shoes/bag: bag shall be those be enough for all my books kind...shoes shall be those sandals/slippers non-slippery kind that i can wear to anywhere... :X
4. sweater that feels thick and comfy yet is very light so that i can bring to sch...
5.wallet that i've been lusting for quite awhile in The Wallet Shop~
shall update if i think of more later. xD

sick again x.x

2009-08-26T16:29:00.002+08:00

was feeling fine yesterday, just tired until my SSA lecture then i started to have this killer headache...in the end i couldnt tahan and left during the break. but while i was on the bus my nausea got to a point where i couldnt take it anymore...and since i din want to vomit on the bus i alighted. and here come the problem: now how do i go home when i cant take/bus/taxi or walk home? so in the end i called home to ask my bro come fetch me...D:

felt too paiseh to vomit in bro's car cos 1.was afraid of leaving the smell and 2. din want him to listen while i vomit, so disgusting! so i tahan-ed till i reached home then chionged to toilet...x.x straight away slept all the way till 8+ am...haix. just went to see the doc and i think she thought i'm pregnant or something...O.O ha but if she ever ask me that i would just tell her my fb quiz answer lolol. :X

shall update about sunday in next entry...still waiting for photos. =/

Nao sama <3333!

2009-08-23T00:15:00.003+08:00

LOL at my own title...xD better update these before i forget... :X

went clubbing with suntec, mh, celine and her friends on fri at rebel. i thought it would be too late by the time i finish work but apparently the real action only starts sometime around 12+ 1+. (omg i just saw a bright flash of lightning x.x) it was fun psychoing suntec to go with us! :D somehow her friends were drunk by the time we met them... ._. but luckily they still seemed quite normal... :X

so basically i tried a sip of suntec's drink (rum) and mh's drink (dry whiskey or something) and shared a brandy with coke with celine...one guy actually came to talk to us (i dun know what he was saying, at first i thought he was one of their friends...O.O) but suntec said he was trying to invite us to dance or something, in the end i think it was somehow said that he was trying to ask us if he looked drunk ._.

i think i was the wet blanket cos i din dance on the dance floor. but i din even want to go onto the dance floor in the first place mah... -.- then SOMEBODY keep banging me hoping that i would get unstuck and start dancing LOL. :X so i guess the clubbing scene isnt for me...or maybe next time i would really just stay off the dance floor. (i saw alot ppl sitting and not dancing also loh...i shall be the observer xD) reached home and slept like a pig till i had to wake up to meet izu...

went to daiso (omg she actually din know how to go imm from je interchange -.-) to buy the pouches...so limited choices! x.x then went to meet suntec...oh yeah at this point i must mention the yukata. suntec went to collect our yukatas yesterday at bishan, but in the end the person said hers was out of stock and somehow she forgot to inform her so in the end she never order anything! where got like that de...at least must contact the buyer again right?? ._. in the end she got no new yukata...lucky she got an old one but the new one was supposed to lend to shan...x.x anyway at first i thought i ordered the wrong design cos the link in the order form was actually a light blue one...in the end it turned out that i ordered correctly. ._.

so...we went to her house and basically crapped/stoned in her room after the long and sleep-inducing bus ride...then shan came and we continued crapping and dressing...(thanks suntec and shan for helping me wear the yukata and obi and do my hair! :D unglam unglam...x.x) by the time mh came i think we were *almost* finishing...(shall include the photos after suntec/shan/mh send them to me! :D) then ate cup noodles...lol mass maggie mee eating session xD IZU PLEASE SIT DEMURELY! :X hurhur...still dare say i look like yakuza (or something like that? o.o) aka 大姐大... -.- then it was 4+ before we finally went out to take taxi...when we reached we saw along queue and the yukata rental actually ran out already...D: i wonder how those ppl manage to rent so fast loh...

played 2 games, 1 is random ticam and hopefully will get a big prize...but sadly i din. =/ then another is supposed to use a paper hook to hook the balloon...but in the end we din manage to hook dao but we still got balloons! :D took some group photos...then bought food and went to picnic at the seating area. was supposed to meet sihan but somehow...wrong time wrong place. :X anyway~met sharn also...then the performances started...mass dancing! xD so fun except that i din know the moves...and someone keep 偷拍... D:

and we saw eye candy! i thought our tastes were different...but apparently we both liked number 11! another reason why it's my fave number...xD Nao-sama <3>

then went to take chartered bus to expo...sihan wanted to come find me but somehow... ._. so we all stoned on the train...attempted to take some nice photos...if not all the photos i have to upload will be those random/sudden shots and unglam ones...x.x 夏祭り <3!>

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Girl: i love u.
Guy: i dun love u, so please stop saying that u love me.

~~when even ur own bf compares u to his friends' girlfriends and find u lacking...how can i believe anymore?~~

依然是朋友？

2009-08-21T01:24:00.004+08:00

~~so i'm not good enough. what's new?~~
i know u needed to rant and u needed a friend. but imagine if the friend and the accused are actually the same person...and now i'm speaking to u as a friend. STOP SELF-PITYING AND WAKE UP PLEASE. "nobody cares about me liao" etc are u sure? yes friends might not be there for u 24/7 but who can? afterall friends are not ur significant other or something, they have their own lives. dun just assume that oh, just cos they did one small thing wrong they are not ur true friends/dun treat u good/dun care about u.

i know u said many ppl pretend to be ur friends but actually they just want to make use of u. that's life. u just have to be smart enough to know who are the real friends and who are the others.

and now i shall talk to u as...someone more than a friend. please stop acting like u really know everything. u just have to admit that there will be some things in which others actually know more about than u. is ur male ego too big to acknowledge that fact? i'm not trying to criticize u but it really puts me off. i dun know about other ppl and i dun know whether u've noticed me trying to change the topic whenever u start one of ur ask-me-and-i-can-do-whatever-it-is speeches...

u told me the person u loved most in ur life was ur ex...but i sort of knew that already cos both before and after we got together, i felt that she was constantly popping up in the conversation...and i felt that somehow i cant measure up to her. so if i ever want to find...i want to find someone who is the one i love the most and whom i am the most too.
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like i said before, i may appear normal on the outside but sometimes i cant help but let something slip through. u asked me why the sudden decision to get together after so long and i couldnt really give u an answer. that's cos i think i'm not sure why too. 不清不楚的在一起，然后不清不楚的分开，i think that's the best description already.

i know i'm not a good gf. ty said as much before already. but everytime i'm trying to learn from my mistakes...i just dun know what i can do anymore. maybe like what he said, i'm just plain selfish, everytime must always do things my way. i dun know why it became like that, but i always thought that was cos he din want to make the decisions.

please dun think that i'm some sadist who likes to hurt ppl on purpose. i'm not that numb or unfeeling. i cant hurt ppl without feeling hurt too. and sometimes i dun even know what i did that hurt them or how they managed to get hurt by it.

i'm not sure what does love feel like anymore. i'm not sure if i've ever experienced it before...maybe once...twice...the feeling whenever u see them, that happy feeling like ur heart is bursting. looking forward to meeting them, talking to them... ~~but i guess i really numbed myself to the point that i dun let myself feel any of that anymore~~

just read 2 articles these few days about how it might not be fair to judge ppl base on their facebook...but i realise that it's really easy for ppl to do whatever they want since they can always just argue that's it only online...weird.
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i think i read somewhere that studies/research/surveys have shown that ppl dun like it when their companions keep a constant look-on for other ppl they might know/friends while they are outside together. cos it feels like once they found someone else more interesting/good-looking/humorous/entertaining etc they would get passed over for that someone. it's that constant feeling of "if i'm so interesting, why do they have to keep a look-out for someone more interesting? it must be cos i'm not good enough..."

i used to wonder why ppl would do that...i mean, it would definitely be more fun to talk to ppl u know, and the one u're going out with would definitely be one of those better friends...(if not why are u out with him/her?) that's another reason why i never really notice my surroundings when i'm out with my friends...why should i when the ppl i want to be with are already around me? =)

sometimes u do things out of the sudden that make me feel really touched cos of the thought and effort. but other times u also do things that make me...suddenly apprehensive. which is why i said u were complicated...

2009-08-17T22:58:00.003+08:00

cant really remember what i did over the weekend...oh but i remember going to play squash on sat morning (surprisingly we all managed to wake up on time!) hence the muscle aches and butt ache...it was...fun to play again after stopping for 6months (since sis got pregnant...) and apparently i sweated so much that i turned red...i din know thick-skinned ppl can do that! =O so maybe it means i still have hope afterall...xD

was quite traumatized cos was afraid of getting caught by the security guard...and the toilet is so scary! :x but hey their notice says "users are required to present their matric card upon request by staff" they never say must be NTU/NIE matric card right! :D so i was planning to just give them mine if they asked...heng they din. xD and realised there was actually a campus dress code..."NO SHORTS" oops =/ so 做贼心虚 loh was afraid of getting caught...==" and got the fright of my life when someone stopped us to ask for directions. SOMEBODY acted like he really knew the place...turned out he pointed them in the wrong direction...i think. ._.

then went to jp for some jubeat (i'm still so far from S4! i want my in the name of love! D:) and witnessed the rapid consumption of a plate of charsiew rice AND a plate of wanton mee (looks nice...yumyum :X).

then went home to shower before meeting celine for lan...she was supposed to ask one more friend along but...somehow she told me there was 3...they were supposed to reach around 6+/7 but ended up reaching only around 8+ then went for dinner...and only 2 came. that Mr Punggol pangseh-ed us again. -.- din really feel like leaving her alone there so...yeah. =/ in the end i was late for mj! again! x.x

then on sunday...went to work (i really dun like waking up early cos i cant sleep early! D:) and...this week's lessons were still quite okay...after that stayed in the office till 6+ cos we set up a lan shop LOL. playing audi side by side! :D wanted to walk home in the *heavy* rain but it suddenly stopped... -.-

i cant get any SSA tutorial slots. i hope i manage to get something i can fit into my timetable...D: the lessons are quite okay, but this sem i'm spending alot on textbooks even though i'm buying most of them 2nd-hand! =( looking forward to natsu matsuri with various ppl this sat...I WANT TO SEE IZU IN YUKATA LOL :X (dar i really really hope our yukatas reach in time...like still no news? -.-) shall take alot of photos! and suddenly have this urge to take some neo-prints...=/ and this thur i'm going to guan yin temple and one other temple to 1. see a fortune teller (so exciting! wanted to do this for a long time but...) 2. get qian for some things. first time also and i wonder how they do it! would be interesting to read the story behind the qian...xD

and and and FD movie marathon coming soon! (dek have u asked ur dad...? :X) and FD4 coming out next week too...plus alot of horror movies too...xDDD

CELINE AND DAR WHEN WANTS GIRLS NIGHT OUT AND WANT DO WHAT? :D

~~sick of all the uncertainty. dar said i wont be able to take the emoness and i think she might just be right afterall...我好累...~~

this just goes to show...

2009-08-13T18:41:00.003+08:00

~~i shall pretend my hands are not shaking as i type this.~~

i dun know how to say this. all the way from sch to the office, i was thinking of all kinds of worst scenarios. all of them involved u doing/saying something to break my trust, and wondering just what happened, going sick with worry and apprehension. but in the end, it was my intergrity/honesty that was being doubted. and as is the case with all things unexpected, it's what u dun guess/expect that kills u.

when someone ask me something, no matter who they are or what the question is, my first response would always be "Why?". ~~to think i would be judged cos of this.~~ cos i want to know what is their motive/reason in asking and whether i should tell them the truth or avoid the topic totally. i dun know how many times i've said this, but i dun lie. especially not about something as life-changing/important as this. and since we're on this topic, i din expect something like this to be so important to u. but u know what? it's not something that u should be concerned about anymore cos it's none of ur business. not anymore.

i thought i was the one who needs to learn how to trust. i thought by being always honest with ppl, they would take my words seriously and believe me. ~~well that just goes to show what i know~~ like i said, when i give my trust, i expect the same thing in return.

我还能说什么？你一开始就已经判了刑，还来问我干什么。。。

thank u for teaching me another very valuable lesson. time for stronger, thicker walls, stronger, better defences... =)

笑着流泪，that's what i'm best at anyway.

the worst part about being unhappy isnt being alone with no one to help u bear it, it's being upset inside yet unable to show it outside. which was what i did all the way from sch to my office. and i still have 3hrs before i can go home...

i'm just glad this happened before i did anything stupid.
~~for ur own sake, i hope u dun appear later. geminis hold grudges remember?~~

happy national day singapore!

2009-08-09T15:42:00.002+08:00

looooooooong weekend this week! went jp with sis on fri for my first manicure and pedicure (i was only expecting the manicure loh as a result i wasnt mentally prepared enough...) and they actually do more things than i expected! i was wondering how come manicures take so long when all they have to do is just paint the nails...then i realise they also do some massaging and applying various "things". i think i like the massage! maybe i should go try more next time...and the pain...i managed to make myself switch off from the pain...LOL. =/

then on sat woke up at 9am (even though i din have to work or what, woke up for mac breakfast!) we were supposed to meet at 10...but SOMEBODY woke up late and still had time to do facebook notes! -.- so missed mac breakfast...D: then rushed to cathay to watch UP cos the movie starts at 1145 and we only met at 11... -.- spoilers ahead! :X

the movie was quite nice but we were abit late? it had started already when we went in...so in the story there was 2 ppl, an old guy and the kid. the movie started from the life story of the old guy...and it's so romantic! the way he met his wife was simply... ._. haha but the way he missed her after she died...i can feel his pain LOL. =/ and i'm glad that the kid gave him what he din have after his wife died...some of the parts were just damn funny loh. recommend this if u have no movies to watch/bored/in a laughing mood...

then went home to rot for about an hour and change before going for cousin's wedding (photos maybe after they upload it?) I CANT BELIEVE MY COUSIN GOT MARRIED! okay lah maybe i can but he's only 24! and last year my another cousin got married at 24 too!! =O is it fashionable to marry young nowadays? ._. anyway memories of how we used to play together in a group suddenly came flooding back. it's like...how can someone who used to climb up and down the beds/mattresses be getting married already?! LOLOL! :X but anyway the dinner was not bad lah (considering i dun even eat much things until the noodles...)

they had a photo montage consisting of their photos up till now, a video of the morning's tea ceremony and they had something extra! it was an animation about how they met and got to know each other AND IT WAS SO CUTE! xD but hoh the animation characters dun look that cute loh...i think i can do better. =/ (hurhurhur...) and really loh weddings never fail to touch me. x.x

so after the dinner rushed to meet suntect, mh and sharn...went to the pub first and requested to drink dar's beer before i remembered that it was bitter! x.x then went to play l4d until 330am! ==" actually we only played 2 campaigns...tried the normal one to warm up first and then progressed to advanced...somehow we kept dying! -.- i dun know why loh the tank always manage to come out from the wrong place...so in the end our number of times restarted = 6...=/ but not bad lah considering we restarted 6 times we only took 2hrs for the whole thing! ohoh and my bro's gf just told me last night that my gown/dress for their wedding shall be sponsored! MUAHAHAHA sorry loh bro i think the bridal shop got dresses in my size but perhaps not in urs! time to diet hoh. :D

还在回味你给过的温柔
我微笑着让香味停留
缘分走到这也赖着不走
像夹心饼干中间有甜头
继续下去不需要理由

2009-08-05T23:27:00.002+08:00

maybe it's time to start trusting completely...

u wont believe how much courage it took to get that question out.
but it's something i've been wondering about for quite awhile.
seems like i finally got the answer... =)

2009-08-04T17:40:00.005+08:00

i said i was commitment phobic din i?

just remembered a part of a convo i once had with dar. cant really rememeber how we started talking about this, but the important part was something like...

her: huh he not scared he become like hl also ah?

and i was like...yeah...how do i know it wont happen again? i cant even trust myself now. i thought i was the only one who thought this way but apparently dar thinks this way too...abit creepy to hear my own dark thoughts echoed by someone else. =/

do i really know u very well? come to think of it, do u know me very well? just thought of an interesting analogy suddenly. imagine that relationships are like buying something. u go somewhere, perhaps already with some idea of what design u want to find. but if u find one that u like and the price is within ur budget, u would still buy it even if it's different from what u initially thought u wanted. but the difference is that things like electronics come with warranty. u can exchange for a new one or fix it for free within the warranty period. but relationships dun. u cant break up and then use ur warranty card to exchange for a new one cos it wont be the same. u also wont get back the feelings/efforts u have put in.

i know we said to experiment and not contact for one week, but i think the answer wont be what u want. i just hope u wont be too disappointed after one week...

2009-08-04T00:59:00.002+08:00

問世閒情爲何物。。。

i remember asking max (i think i mentioned this before already) what are the boundaries for friends and something more than friends. then i thought of something, the song we once sang for talentime audition (and din get in LOL): "友達以上，戀人未滿" ie more than friends, not yet lovers. just had a long chat and i finally told him what has been bothering me...and he turned out to be more understanding than i thought. no wonder he could stand being my good friend for so long...xD

something i got enlightened on recently...it's easy to be/feel happy with friends, cos with friends u have lower expectations, like u wont expect ur friends to ditch everything they are doing to console u when u're feeling really down, yet when u're with someone u secretly wish for them to be by ur side 24/7 even though u know it's not possible, then blaming them for not being there for u...

he says i have changed alot since the time before we lost contact for 2 years ie sometime in jc1 till now. apparently now i've became more cynical and defensive...(that's what i understood from what he said lah. correct me if i'm wrong... :X) but obviously loh who wont change when 1. they lost contact with their friends for 2 years (i also dun know how that happened, somehow it just did, cos i got sick of having to explain myself, having quarrels every single time after i go out with my friends) and 2. had to rebuild their lives practically from scratch.

it's the feeling that u're standing among a crowd, not moving yet still feeling lost. cos i forgot who i was anymore. i din know how to be by myself anymore. another thing he mentioned was...something about the way i show concern now? :X lol yeah i sort of discovered that if u show how much u care about someone, u're actually exposing urself to hurt, making urself vulnerable. cos if u dun care then u wont get hurt. it's only when u care what that person say or do then would u get hurt...

i never trusted ppl easily ever since i was sec2, which is why i always observe ppl for quite sometime before i decide if they are actually "safe" enough for me to trust, cos it's when u trust ppl that their betrayal hurts the most. like discovering ur friend has actually been hiding something important concerning u from u. even then i do not trust them 100%...i still need to reserve some part, just in case the worst happens i wont be caught completely unprepared, at least i can say " wa heng i never completely trust that person sia...if not would have been completely cheated liao".

sometimes no matter how much u want a relationship to work, it wont cos it's missing something. for me i think in order to have a relationship, they need to 1. know each other well enough that they know what they are in for (LOL sounds bad :X), so that they can trust each other and 2. chemistry. i couldnt differentiate between friendship and love anymore. it felt like we were still just friends. oh well...i kind of forgot what i was going to blog about. =/

02/08/2009

2009-08-03T16:49:00.003+08:00

had to wake up at 7 again...D: the p1 and p2 kids really make me feel like...strangling them. :X NEXT TIME MY NEPHEWS/NIECES/CHILDREN BETTER DUN BE SO NAUGHTY AH!! i think it's karma from my primary sch days...that's why being a teacher wasnt one of my career choices...cos i knew i would just vomit blood. x.x anyway, went out after work with mh and suntec to arcade/lan/pool!

we also went to the pub/bar near suntec's house to drink. O.O Yay I DRANK MY FIRST ALCOHOLIC DRINK! :D it's called spritzer (made of white wine and soda) and it tasted...bitter. i was expecting something sweeter bah since it includes soda...but nvm it just gets better (or maybe my tongue just gets numb after the first few sips.) then drank till 1215 (i only drank 1 glass hoh.) then went to play pool~next time dun dare play with suntec liao lah she's so pro~ =/ stopped played after 1 or 2 games cos i realised i was falling asleep while standing. :X and decided not to talk much also cos i wasnt sure what kind of things would come out. x.x

i thought ppl only drink when they are feeling emo...i actually get emo AFTER i drink. -.- some ppl get noisy/embarrassing after they drink...i actually just get quieter and quieter. :X but dar next time i still want go try hoh! see got which drinks are nicer de. xD

high tea @ pan pacific hotel

2009-08-01T23:04:00.005+08:00

woke up at the ungodly hour of 720 to go to work...(and the irritating thing is i actually have to do it again tmr -.-) then worked till 1130 and went to meet celine kint izu dek jojo~dek and kint were the ones who told us not to be late one loh in the end they both late! D: (yes kint 1min also considered late hoh!) then we walked to Pan Pacific Hotel (yes celine i finally remember the name...dun need keep telling me PP anymore hoh. x.x) then the rest went for their 3rd serving while i was still eating my first... =/

i think we spent about 3hrs + there just eating and crapping...(not literally, at least maybe except for celine xD)

the dying flower on kint/celine/izu's table...

and the blossoming one on me/dek/jojo's! :D

the "chocolate fondue"!! xDDD

dek's piece of art~

jojo + izu...ai mei-ing?? O.O

last but not least...mr kinky! :D

after eating we walked to dhoby/park lane for lan...i intro-ed l4d to both celine and xin dar! xD hurhur but celine seemed traumatized...=/ then we went to dhoby with the intention of being guai-kias and going home, but as usual we couldnt resist the temption of arcade (but surprisingly we din jubeat today, we just played a few *free* rounds of bball and took neoprints!)

i designed this! (kint dun need thank me for the da-bians...xD) and...

this! something on everyone's head. izu is 50% off! lelong lelong who want buy~~

the yellow king + queen one designed by my dar... :D

NEXT TIME WE GO TAKE AGAIN OKAY! xDDD

2009-07-31T22:41:00.002+08:00

一整個宇宙換一顆紅豆

原來不值得。。。我們都好傻。

and i actually thought...

hurhurhur

2009-07-31T15:19:00.004+08:00

had an unexpected outing with xin dar and mh last night after work~i intro-ed them to l4d!! hurhur and i think imanaged to bring out xin dar's violent side. u wont believe how many times i got hit by stray bullets LOL. xD supposed to walk/take taxi back after playing but we ended up having supper at some indian stall (?). THEN we finally took taxi home lol...did an inspection of xin dar's wallet (not really inspection loh since i do that to all my friends... :X) but din find anything suspicious leh! D:

okay i just got very bo liao and scraped my plans to do a movie on xiao qiang. -.-

as i remember correctly, i stopped updating on Operation Xiao Qiang...the Cockroach Killer came around 5+, and at that time i was still ~~hiding~~ stuck in the room. so he came and we tried to find Xiao Qiang among the files...(HE EVEN THOUGHT HE HEARD SCURRYING when it was actually just the sound of the files moving...sometimes i really doubt their professionalism(?). tsk...=/)

here comes the panicking part cos i DID NOT want to be stuck with XQ until fri (then it would be xin's turn hurhurhur). so i went into the next room and see if there was anyway XQ could have squeezed inside...then when i came out somehow the Killer discovered XQ on the door! (nice one trying to camouflage urself with the brown door...but we can see ur feelers twitching!) at this point i decided to be considerate and stay out of the way of the Killer so i went into the room again to ~~hide~~wait.

meanwhile there was alot of sounds: banging-the-chair-around, waving-the-plastic-bag-around type of noises etc etc.

and...TADA! the Killer opened the door to show me the plastic bag with XQ inside (JUST KILL/SQUASH/STEP IT OR SOMETHING LAH!) seriously, he's supposed to be the Killer, not the Saviour or something. -.- u can keep it as a pet if u want, but i wont be going near it anytime soon. (i wonder if XQ's still in the dustbin...)

(for the benefit of XQ's family...)

Speech by Xiao Xiao Qiang, XQ's youngest son:

our beloved daddy XQ has departed this world to go to a faraway land. interested parties please be there on 1st Aug 10am at XXXXX(address censored, dun need tell whole world our address -.-). the funeral would be held in the room next to where the accident/murder/kidnapping happened. till now we're still not really sure what happened to him, but as in the custom in our species, we presume him to be dead (or going to be anyway).

Precautions:
it is expected that humans would be present therefore we strongly urge all visitors to enter the venue by the "back door" aka the small hole through the door. kindly DO NOT come in big groups and attract attention to ourselves. however, as it is understood that humans are not allowed to use insecticide, we have a chance of winning with sheer numbers. after some investigation, we found that only 1 human female is expected to be in constant proximity at the time of the funeral. therefore, it would perhaps be a good idea to scare/intimidate her before we proceed with the funeral to ensure minimal disturbance.

for more details, please check www.xiaoqiangslife.com.sg

cant say that i wasnt touched LOL.

2009-07-29T14:11:00.011+08:00

i came into the office, intending to write a long random post...but what i got was the scare of my life. i went in, intending to switch on the aircon...and just as my finger was reaching the button, i saw it twitch. -.- STUPID COCKROACH cant u find somewhere else to sleep/slack/rot, someplace where i cant see u and know that u're there! now i have to wait till 6+ for the class guys to come and help me kill... -.- and the worst thing is i'm not allowed to use insecticide! (otherwise it would be die u cockroach die!) pray that it doesnt come into the room i'm hiding in. (thanks dar for ur very helpful suggestion D:)

OPERATION XIAO QIANG is now on. Target: xiao qiang aka The Cockroach. Victim: me. who else? -.- Location: nowhere is safe! Action taken: hide. (did i mention how i thought it was crawling onto my shoe and thus i kicked my shoe off? -.-) i'm generally not scared of cockroaches de okay but not when 1. it suddenly appear in unexpected places (ie on the aircon switch) 2. it can fly 3. when i dun have a large bottle of insecticide with me.

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okay enough of the cockroach...must stay on-track with what i wanted to ~~crap~~ blog about! :D

update on xiaoqiang: it just disappeared to i dun know where! D,:

oh yeah yesterday's kbox was really quite different from the other kbox i've went to...for one thing, the seats werent spoilt/tattered LOL. :X and they actually have this cool keypad thingy with choices like "applause! jeers! whistles!" on it! had fun playing with those buttons :/

by the way i finally found the song i've been looking for yesterday! :D abit sad though that i couldnt recognise the song until the chorus. :X and i was actually going to write a long post which is a continuation from yesterday's post but since i've forgotten everything the lyrics shall do for now. soooo touching! xD

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.

I love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful
'Cos I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.

I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me... (oh man this is the touching part!!)

And when the stars are shining brightly
In the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish
Send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy
For all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of..
The highest power.
In lonely hours.
The tears devour you..

I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...

Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cos it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do...

okay i shall not be mean.

看着你的脆弱，并非无动于衷。。。
cos the next time, i want it to last forever...
there is only one thing stopping me...or make that 2. or 3...

2009-07-29T00:45:00.006+08:00

went to kbox today and i just had a good idea! *brain damaged due to too many emo songs at one go* :D i shall base my post today on all the emo songs! hurhur... :X the following shall all be part of the lyrics from various songs...xD

我難過,但是說不出口. 釋懷說了太多就成真不了,也許時間是一種解葯...我的天空今天有點灰, 誰和我一樣等不到他的誰.

你寫給我的第一首歌, 你和我十指緊扣, 可是那然後呢...彼此依賴, 是愛不是負荷, 能握著手就是幸福的. 後來終于在眼淚中明白, 有些人一旦錯過就不在.

had a "discussion" with max about true love...and i realised that some ppl's definition definitely different from mine worh. o.o but like i told him...no hurry lah rather take a longer time to find the right one than to hurry find one and find the wrong one...slowly find lol. and there's actually something called meeting the right one at the wrong time vs meeting the wrong one at the right time and meeting the right one at the right time. ._. i thought as long as it's the right one u wont care whether it's the right time or not LOL :X

2009-07-27T11:36:00.006+08:00

maybe i should start to learn to think before i talk.

went to amk arcade yesterday~discovered some new games to play! :D and no they are not violent games loh...D: played 1 game of piu with dar and CMI! i really dun know how we used to be able to spend the whole day just piu-ing at dhoby... -.- must be age catching up with me. D:

i'm glad we're talking again...it might take awhile to build up the trust again but u've always been my good friend and would still be no matter what happens! xD i've missed talking to u for the past year...welcome back =)

note: i wouldnt say u're a nice guy...judging from the pics! xD

2009-07-25T23:27:00.004+08:00

today was supposed to be a happy outing with sharn and suntec~could see that sharn was trying to act stupid to cheer us up (or maybe he wasnt acting? LOL :X) thanks~ and sorry for flying u 2 de aeroplane by running away so suddenly...x.x

BUT I'VE FOUND THAT WATCHING STUPID SHOWS ON TV DOES HELP HAHAHAHAHAHA...xD

2009-07-24T22:45:00.007+08:00

i dun know whether it's because i've never really known u at all, or is it that u've changed so much in the past year till i couldnt recognise u...but it's shocking to realise that someone whom i would have once upon a time trusted in completely is now like a stranger to me...

~~the urge to run and hide myself is getting stronger~~...why must everything be so complicated? it's so hard to pretend to be happy sometimes...

do u really know me well enough to say that u love me?

shopping shopping~

2009-07-22T23:25:00.004+08:00

now i know why i hate shopping... -.- met her yesterday at dbg (oops i was 30mins late! x.x) then (here began all the walking) walked to orchard...xin says she wanted to find orchard hotel so i kept thinking we were going there to look at yukatas. it was only after we actually reached the place that i realised she wanted to go japan embassy (which was near orchard hotel) LOL ._. so we walked from dhoby all the way to *somewhere* where we took a bus, then we somehow walked all the way up nassim hill (cos logically thinking nassim road should be somewhere near nassim hill mah!!) but ended up we had to come down the hill again, walk somemore, then finally we found nassim road!! dun know why they had to build the japan embassy at such an ulu place but we spent 2hrs looking for it! lolol =/

then we took a cab to bugis (i was feeling half dead by now liao x.x) where we found xin's obi (so ex! TT) and couldnt find my yukata cos being the lazy soul i am, i actually just wanted to find a set which ideally includes at least the yukata, geta, obi and that pouch thingy. then in that shop at most only got set of obi yukata and geta only...(not to mention i'm not very satisfied with the price and the designs loh. so many pink ones!! *shivers*) then we walked to (pardon me if i mess up my sequence cos i got abit comatose around here) haji lane where supposedly there was a house of japan but it 倒閉 already...D: at this point i gave up and we went to illuma for lunch/dinner (at 4pm~) AND HOH, the main motivation why we went there was for the 4 jubeat machines...thus imgaine our horror/disappointment where there wasnt even any sign of any jubeat machine. -.-

we ate at noodles empire (now i know why they were so enthusiastically looking for customers...). i asked them what was their soup of the day and they actually replied that it's the same everyday... ==" nvm i shall *hopefully* have my chicken soup at pizza hut tmr. :D then she had to go to office for work~so i continued my search in orchard with mh and hl...went to isetan in Lido then isetan in Tangs, then isetan in Wisma (AGAIN. i'm not going to any isetan for at least the next year. -.-) after that went to taka where i only saw very limited choices of yukata and geta, dun know why so many ppl in the forums recommend there...maybe next time when i go i shall ask the shop helpers (when i'm not as tired and not-thinking as i was yesterday). but i managed to find 2 pairs of booties for my dear nephew (SO CUTEEEEE!!! xD).

then we were supposed to go dhoby for arcade but mh's friend say far east got sell...so we went there and the shop's actually Haru (and the whole shop is soooo pink! i'm traumatized. ._.) but i couldnt see any yukatas i wanted...and they dun really come in sets. :X i really cant remember much from then on cos i was really like dead man walking LOL. oh yeah here's a pic of the super nice yukata i found online...but too bad the ordering period ended already. D:

---------i'm sorry i lied----------------from lovefatedestiny.com

Jenny was so happy about the house they had found. For once in her life that was on the right side of town. She unpacked her things with such great ease. As she watched her new curtains blow in the breeze. How wonderful it was to have her own room. School would be starting, she would have friends over soon. There will be sleep-overs, and parties. She was so happy. It's just the way she wanted her life to be.

On the first day of school, everything went great. She made new friends and even got a date! She thought, "I want to be popular and I'm going to be, because I just got a date with the star of the team!" To be known in this school you had to have a clout, and dating this guy would sure help her out. There was only one problem stopping her fate. Her parents had said she was too young to date. "Well I just won't tell them the entire truth. They won't know the difference. What's there to lose?"

Jenny asked to stay with her friends that night. Her parents frowned but said, "All right." Excited, she got ready for the big event. But as she rushed around like she had no sense, she began to feel guilty about all the lies, but what's a pizza, a party, and a moonlight ride? Well the pizza was good, and the party was great, and the moonlight ride would have to wait, for Jeff was half drunk by this time.

But he kissed her and said that he was just fine. Then the room filled with smoked and Jeff took a puff. Jenny couldn't believe he was smoking that stuff. Now Jeff was ready to ride to the point, but only after he'd smoked another joint.
They jumped in the car for the moonlight ride, not thinking that he was too drunk to drive. They finally made it to the point at last, and Jeff started trying to make a pass. A pass is not what Jenny wanted at all (and by a pass, I don't mean playing football.) "Perhaps my parents were right. Maybe I am too young. Boy, how could I ever, ever be so dumb?" With all of her might, she pushed Jeff away, "Please take me home, I don't want to stay."

Jeff cranked up the engine and floored the gas. In a matter of seconds they were going too fast. As Jeff drove on in a fit of wild anger, Jenny knew that her life was in danger. She begged and pleaded for him to slow down, but he just got faster as they neared the town. "Just let me get home! I'll confess that I lied. I really went out for a moonlight ride."

Then all of a sudden, she saw a big flash. "Oh God, Please help us! We're going to crash!" She doesn't remember the force of impact. Just that everything all of a sudden went black. She felt someone remove her from the twisted rubble, and heard, "Call an ambulance! These kids are in trouble!" Voices she heard, a few words at best. But she knew there were two cars involved in the wreck.

Then wondered to herself if Jeff was all right, and if the people in the other car was alive. She awoke in the hospital to faces so sad. "You've been in a wreck and it looks pretty bad." These voices echoed inside her head, as they gently told her that Jeff was dead. They said "Jenny, we've done all we can do. But it looks as if we'll lose you too." "But the people in the other car?" Jenny cried. "We're sorry, Jenny, they also died."

Jenny prayed, "God, forgive me for what I've done. I only wanted to have just one night of fun." "Tell those people's family, I've made their lives dim, and wish I could return their families to them." "Tell Mom and Dad I'm sorry I lied, and that it's my fault so many have died. Oh, nurse, won't you please tell them that for me?"

The nurse just stood there. She never agreed. But took Jenny's hand with tears in her eyes. And a few moments later Jenny died. A man asked the nurse, "Why didn't you do your best to bid that girl her one last request?" She looked at the man with eyes so sad. "Because the people in the other car were her mom and dad."

2009-07-20T01:09:00.006+08:00

they say time heals all wounds...but there would always be scars. strange how 2 ppl could once have been so close yet now we are like total strangers...so i just did what my instinct told me to do which is what i always do aka hide...

went all the way to amk for arcade with izu and kint yesterday...but was quite tired after only 1 game (cant help it if we're getting old x.x) and got dehydrated LOL. then crapped till 9...heng on the train back got seats for me to stone...xD met celine again today (so rare loh meet her 2days straight! =O blame it on her zibi-ness k) and mh for harry potter...the first thing i noticed about the movie was some of the translations are just so...weird. ._.

i kept waiting for the real action to start but...it feels like the movie ended before anything even really started...=/ oh yeah on the way to cck actually saw ty at bukut gombak...i couldnt even recognise him loh LOL. and to think before that we just mentioned him...TT

i used to believe in happily ever after was just as simple as mentioned in the stories. but in the stories, they always end with "and they lived happily ever after". they did not mention anything about how the prince/princess might have met someone else, or even they just decided actually they are not that happy together afterall. they dun mention the little things in daily life which are so important to couples. they dun mention the little quarrels, the little conflicts that might just end a marriage. because it is actually the small things that count.

i'm a hopeless romantic but most cases around me are just negative examples. even before marriage, there are already some ppl who treat relationships like some kind of game. in good times and in bad times, most can do it for the good times, but how many can really do it for the bad ones? how do u know that the one u've chosen wont turn around and betray u the next minute? how do u know that u wont give ur all only to realise that it wasnt worth it afterall...how many ppl really mean it when they say "i love u" to their partners?

last but not least...something i realised today while in class. teachers require great amounts of patience, care and kindness...so no wonder i cant be one LOLOL. xD

i think this story suits my theme for today lol...from lovefatedestiny.com (it has all the most touching stories i've ever read! xD)

The missing rib

A girl in love asked her boyfriend.
Girl: Tell me. Who do you love most in this world?

Boy: You, of course!

Girl: In your heart, what am I to you?

Boy: The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said, "You are my rib. It was said that God saw that Adam was lonely, during his sleep, God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve. Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find the woman of your life, you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart."

After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a while.

However, the youthful couple began to drift apart due to the busy schedule of life and the never-ending worries of daily problems, their life became mundane.

All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other. The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated.
One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house. At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!"

The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted, "Maybe, it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!"

Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while. He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown away water, you can never take it back. With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined in breaking-up.

Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please let me go." She continued, "It is less painful this way. Let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners."

Five years went by...

He never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly. She had left the country and back. She had married a foreigner and divorced. He felt anguished that she never waited for him.

In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart. He couldn't bring himself to admit that he was missing her.

One day, they finally met. At the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good byes. He was going away on a business trip. She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them. She smiled at him gently.

Boy: How are you?

Girl: I'm fine. How about you? Have you found your missing rib?

Boy: No.

Girl: I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.

Boy: I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back. You know my number.
Nothing has changed.

With a smile, she turned around and waved good bye.
Good bye...

One week later, he heard of her death. She had perished in New York, in the event that shocked the world.

Midnight, once again, he lit his cigarette. And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart. He finally knew. She was the missing rib that he had carelessly broken...

list of baby names...xD

2009-07-18T12:30:00.002+08:00

came up with this list of baby names for my sis and bro (actually they suggested it themselves loh).

for sis, sons can be called
1. 黃帝
2. 黃上
3. 黃財神

daughters can be called

1. 黃后 or even...
2. 黃太后

for bro, their sons/daughters can be called

1. 淩淩七 (but for this to work, they would need to have 7 children, start from 淩淩一onwards LOL) xDDD

2009-07-17T22:41:00.003+08:00

happy birthday blog! :D

i will help u change ur look when i can find a nicer skin hoh! xD

this post shall be on...

2009-07-17T01:41:00.003+08:00

my stupid bro who just scared me with a cockroach. D: here are the many things that went through my mind in that split second (this really proves how geminis can think about many things in a short time) :

1. OMG did it die after it banged onto my leg????
2. is it dead yet? i cant see its legs twitching...
3. omg it's one big cockroach!! x.x
4. hmmm now how do i plan my escape route? do i grab my bro who's just beside me and force him to throw away/ step on (to ensure its death) the cockroach or what?
5. AHHHH i really do not want to be so near to a cockroach!! T.T

okay i'm really not the type to be scared of cockroaches okay (only those who fly) but IT BANGED INTO ME!! =/

i just finished my boys over flowers series, so anyone has any nice korean/jap/taiwan/hongkong dramas to recommend? preferably not taiwan cos i find their shows abit...hongkong would be nice, those long series with alot 奸人that kind. xD or jap/korean with alot nice OSTs + guys and girls...=X but best is if someone knows of any shows that's like harry potter! those magic + sch kind which happens to be my 2 fave genres. xD i recently discovered that my sis actually dun know how to appreciate such things...=(

**my blog's going to be 1 year old on sat! must wish my blog happy birthday hoh! xDDD it actually feels like much longer :X

2009-07-15T19:53:00.005+08:00

okok to be fair...i shall open this to the general public. :X

ice age 3d was damn funny! especially the baby animals...xD nice that even the big dino was kind too. while we're on this topic...my pregnant sis (yes celine, dun be shocked again that she's pregnant, she's not getting any younger u know :X) just told me some very shocking things. which i'm sure after reading it, most girls would actually be too traumatized. i'm still too shocked to type it out myself so i shall quote her " need 24 pads for the first two days.. scary!! The menses after delivery lasts about 4 weeks I heard" and the weird thing she said is it's actually worth it due to not having period for 9months!! ><>

i let my guard down today but i'm glad no one saw it. i think i shall go take a long bus ride the next off day i have. sometimes lyrics really speak better than anything else.

石欣卉 - 一人留

有一种想陷下去的感动
听着你的脆弱
并非无动于衷
我总是忘了怎么
不挥霍你辽阔的温柔
他现在比从前消瘦

可惜你的爱我不能收
可惜你的手我不能握
你别再累了
我想甩脱
三人游两人疚一人留
微微的深深的不能舍不得
淡淡的浓浓的都已不值得
你应得的不在我这

勇敢走下一段路口
会有人等候比我更大方
给你更多快乐
用真心将你完成

有一种挥之不去的内疚
读着我的伤忧
读着你的难过
放开你无助安放的执著
好朋友依旧
不会就此擦肩而过

可惜你的爱我不能收
可惜你的手我不能握
你别再累了
我想甩脱三人游两人疚一人留
微微的深深的不能舍不得
淡淡的浓浓的都已不值得
你应得的不在我这

勇敢走下一段路口
会有人等候比我更大方
给你更多快乐
用真心将你完成

我知道我知道我知道
是因为是因为我的爱
我的爱在他身边总离不开~
我爱在这总离不开~

我想甩脱
三人游两人疚一人留
微微的深深的不能舍不得
淡淡的浓浓的都已不值得
你应得的不在我这

勇敢走下一段路口
想不到的会出现的比我更大方
给你更多快乐
用真心将你完成
比我更大方给你更多快乐
我期盼你能快乐

the problem with letting people close to u and actually caring about them is that u give them the power to hurt u... they say geminis dun cry in front of ppl and that's true.

2009-07-11T22:24:00.004+08:00

seems like i haven updated for so long~anyway, today went to vivo to meet sis for lunch/breakfast and water the movie duplicity...she told me it was a romance comedy loh but i was thinking how come doesnt match what i read in the reviews...so throughout the movie (i was in half sleep mode aka sleep with my eyes open mode during the first half of the movie) i was waiting for the funny parts to come out. ._. turns out that sis fell asleep too! xD

after that went to city hall to meet my ma for ndp...so fun loh. :x but too bad it started raining just before the grand finale which includes the long-awaited for fireworks... D: nvm loh i shall wait till the actual day then take pics (which is what i've been doing these past few years anyway~) x.x and it was hard to get a taxi from there loh but on second thoughts still better than newyear countdown lah... :D

a red heart...

then it becomes blue! to me this is the highlight of the goodie bag liao cos <3!! :D

2009-06-27T18:14:00.004+08:00

到了現在我才明白，爲了一個不愛我的人而放棄一個愛我的人是好笨的事。from today onwards i've learnt to let u go. goodbye...

i'm beginning to think that i have sharp ears. xD i heard the song "lucky" by Ashily in the korean version of Boys Over Flowers and i realised that she sounded like the singer of one of the others songs i was looking for from Witch Yoo Hee. so i went to all the trouble...and managed to find the song along with the eng translation of the title. enjoy. =]

Title translation: My love, just come to me

The blue sky is blinding
My heart hurts for some reason
Dew drops form in eyes without me knowing
In my imagination
It feels like you’re getting closer to me
I’ve been waiting for you,
I don’t know since when

I still don’t know love,
I don’t know who you are
When will love come to me?
Waiting for U love
Can’t you get a little
Close to me
My love, Babe my sweet heart

All those other people
How can they think of love?
Am I the only one who doesn’t know how?
Very warm and comfortable
And sometimes sweet
With such love you were always with me

I still don’t know love,
I don’t know who you are
When will love come to me?
Waiting for U love
Can’t you get a little
Close to meMy love,
Babe my sweet heart

Any way that I think about it
When I see you being so happy
And say I love you a thousand times a day
I wondered when and how
Love would come to me
It was already here,
Ever since I knew you
There was a place for you
In my heart

I was born to be with you
If you come to me, our time together
From this point on
Will be a dream.
My loveOh, my love, come to me

*YAY finally got the mixpod thing to work. x.x i'm sure alot of ppl will like the song de loh xD was thinking of changing the blogskin also but i still think my current one is the best liao! :x

to the nice girls out there...

2009-06-24T16:58:00.002+08:00

i know i've posted this before already, but just felt like posting it again (since it's very true and it was 8months ago loh!) i seriously think alot of girls should read this!

*found this in PPF. personally found it quite true and touching so...here u go. =]
warning:long post ahead.

To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong.

This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times.

This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe this time he'll have understood.

This is homage to the girls who laugh loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention.

This is for those girls who have been in the trenches, who have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and f*** up the guys in their lives without saying a word.

This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the trite words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds."

This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it.

This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on. For the girls who have sought a night with friends and been greeted by a night of catcalling, rude comments and explicit invitations that they'd rather not have experienced.

This is for the girls who have spent their weekends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunk phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed.

This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt.

This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.

This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a bitch than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with.

This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone.

This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup.

This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you.

I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had.

This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.

This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep.

This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear.

This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted.

This is for the girls who have been satisfied with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys.

This is what I don't understand.

Men sit and question and whine that girls are only attracted to the mean guys, the guys who berate them and belittle them and don't appreciate them and don't want them; who use them for *** and think of little else than where their next conquest will be made.

Men complain that they never meet nice girls, girls who are genuinely interested and compelling, who are intelligent and sweet and smart and beautiful; men despair that no good women want to share in their lives, that girls play mind games that girls love to keep them hanging.

Yet, men, I ask you: were you to meet one of these genuinely interested, thrillingly compelling, interesting and intelligent and sweet and beautiful and smart girls, were you to give her your number and wait for her to call... and if you were to receive a call from her the next day and she, in her truthful, loyal, intelligent and straightforward nice girl fashion, were to tell you that she finds you intriguing and attractive and interesting and worth her time and perhaps material from which she could fashion a boyfriend, would you or would you not immediately call your friends to tell them of the "stalker chick" you'd met the night prior, who called you and wore her heart on her sleeve and told the truth?

And would you, or would you not, refuse to make plans with her, speak with her, see her again, and once again return to the bar or club or party scene and search once more for this "nice girl" who you just cannot seem to find?

Because therein lies the truth, guys: we nice girls are everywhere.

But you're not looking for a nice girl. You're not looking for someone genuinely interested in your intermural basketball game, or your anatomy midterm grade, or that argument you keep having with your father; you're looking for a quick fix, a night when you can pretend to have a connection with another human being which is just as disposable as the condom you were using during it.

So don't say you're on the lookout for nice girls, guys, when you pass us up on every step you take. Sometimes we go undercover; sometimes we go in disguise: sometimes when that girl in the low cut shirt or the too tight miniskirt won't answer your catcalls, sometimes you're looking at a nice girl in *****'s clothing - - we might say we like the attention, we might blush and giggle and turn back to our friends, but we're all thinking the same thing: "This isn't me. Tomorrow morning, I'll be wearing a teeshirt and flannel shorts, I'll have slept alone and I'll be making my hungover best friend breakfast. See through the disguise. See me."

You never do. Why? Because you only see the exterior, you only see the slutty girl who welcomes those advances. You don't want the nice girl.. so don't say you're looking for a relationship: relationships take time and energy and intent, three things we're willing to extend - - but in return, we're looking for compassion and loyalty and trust, three things you never seem willing to express.

Maybe nice guys finish last, but in the race they're running they're chasing after the bitches and the sluts and the easy-targets... the nice girls are waiting at the finish line with water and towels and a congratulatory hug (and yes, if she's a nice girl and she likes you, the sweatiness probably won't matter), hoping against hope that maybe you'll realize that they're the ones that you want at the end of that silly race.

So maybe it won't last forever. Maybe some of those guys in that race will turn in their running shoes and make their way to the concession stand where we're waiting; however, until that happens, we still have each other, that silly race to watch, and all the chocolate we can eat (because what's a concession stand at a race without some chocolate?)

By Jessica Leigh Griffith Copyright 2004-2005 by Jessica Leigh Griffith

2009-06-19T20:04:00.002+08:00

dun know why everyone keeps pestering me to update blog while rotting in office. precisely cos all i've been doing is rotting that's why cant update mah...-.- but today i've discovered that listening to the radio in the office is 1. a good way to do something else other than rot 2. since i'm the only one in the office the whole day it stops me from becoming totally zibi (hi celine i'm here to steal ur rice bowl! =D). oh yeah speaking of zibi where's my shuj keychain that xin dar gave/planned to give me huh!! D:

so many nice movies coming out in the months of june and july...transformers: revenge of the fallen (priority!), harry potter and the half-blood prince (is it me or is harry's face getting more square?)...cant remember the rest liao. ><>

2009-05-27T22:17:00.001+08:00

i finally found a shop that sells clip-on earrings!! the Aries in cityvibe in clementi! ONE WHOLE RACK OF IT!! yay does this mean other aries outlets will have too? xD anyone who can find any such shops tell me pls~~xD

2009-05-27T15:26:00.002+08:00

just realised i forgot to blog about what's going on for quite long! =x went out with ce, izu and kinky last last sat (16th?) to celebrate mr kinky's belated bday. we are west-erners loh why drag us go around the north...but no choice mah since he was the birthday boy we have to obeyyy him. x.x frankly speaking i cant remember much except when we were in pizza hut and there was another birthday group and they started singing the bday song...u should have seen kinky's face LOL. then we went to ice cube (to the power of 3 cube, not the actualy ice cube which was what i thought it was =x). AND I ATE MY WHOLE YEAR'S SUPPLY OF CHOC. it took me one week to get over the choc overdoes okay. -.-

but...if i wasnt so full already, i think i would have liked to try the food there. the choc ice blended drink is very very nice...not too sweet...maybe next time i shall go there and try other food again. xD

fast forward to 23rd...i went to rot at the clementi lan shop the whole day playing l4d and wanted to try playing rakion again but i forgot my login id and pw after so long...=x then went to lot1 for dinner and i was damn happy to see kobayashi...that jap restaurant that was at jec. but the service, cleanliness and food there were...CMI. then on sun i went to west coast park to fly kite! at least this time i managed to get it up and flying! by up i mean it's taller than me and not dragging on the grass behind me as i run like last time. ><>

i also watched "he's just not that into u" and here are some quotes from the movie. "if a guy doesnt call...he's just not that into u." "if he doesnt want to marry u...he's just not that into u". i cant remember the rest liao...AND i cant believe how bimbo some of the girls are (actually make it most) but i guess they are just reflecting what we all want most bah...

then on mon (the actual day of my bday) i had to wake up at the unholy hour of 8am to pei my sis go for her gynae checkup...at novena. ==" apparently the clinic was specially for pregnant women and children so i saw alot of babies/pregnant women/toddlers/kids running around. i even got to see an ultrasound of the baby in my sis's stomach! i could see the head loh but i tuned out when the doc started saying "this is the head...and here the eyes...the nose..." cos i dun really see anything that looked like eyes. o.o and poor baby...his (porn) pic has already been seen by many even before he's born...i dun have that pic here but...

anyway, after that we went to raffles place/city hall to eat 別府but apparently it 倒閉already so we ended up eating astons...the portions are very big and sis couldnt stop being amazed at how cheap it is. then we went shopping around to look for my shoes and her maternity clothes. i'm really not a fussy/picky shopper loh...of cos must 找到喜歡的then can buy mah...x.x then we went to watch Angels and Demons at marina square...it was about 130mins movie...and i think i slept the first 30mins away since i cant even remember what happened. =/ but things started getting exciting with quite alot of twists...recommended movie. =D but i think it's too religious for me...there was one part near the ending when the person actually goes “thanks God for sending someone to save us..." i was like "shouldnt u be thanking the one who actually saved u???" ._. but then...i'm not a religious person loh and i'll be going to hell for that (according to some ppl).

after that we went to tiong bahru plaza to eat 別府(no...we din actually get to eat it before that so we went looking for it. 不吃到不死心!!) i tried 2 chillies the last time i went so this time i tried 4 chillies...was abit apprehensive when the waitress warned me "很辣worh"but it turned out...still less spicy than volcano bah. maybe next time i shall try 6 chillies? xD oh and i finally found my shoes at tiong bahru plaza...cos otherwise we would have to walk to imm on our way home to continue the search...not that i'm fussy/picky loh...but must find one that 一見鈡情and must-have-it! kind of feeling mah...T.T

so we went home and played mj for 2 rounds...and i ended up losing loh. tsk...should have stopped playing before 12...cos birthday over then no more good luck liao. D: thanks to all those who wished me happy birthday, especially those whom i haven contacted for a very long time! xD and my old hp number wont be in use anymore starting from june so if u want my new no talk to me on msn or something...=]

i'm in love!!!

2009-05-18T22:07:00.003+08:00

...with 方大同!! xD was walking around the other day then heard one of his songs on radio...damn nice okay feels like he's just talking to u...he's fast becoming my 2nd favourite singer (jay's still the first, of cos.)

strongly recommend everyone to go find his songs especially 黑白，三人行and 愛愛愛 ^^

he just looks sooooooooooo nerdy and cute!!! xD

*edited!

2009-05-12T12:36:00.003+08:00

a few ppl has asked me what i want...so i shall squeeze out a wishlist. =x

1. wallet (doesnt have to be doraemon one, in fact i saw some quite nice de at the wallet shop...but u have to know my taste lah. =x)

2. the damn cute mouse that's SUPER ROUND!! xDDD saw it as harvey norman i think. i like the blue one...it's really very round.

3. doraemon pc headphones (i know i already have one, but these are so big that they can cover the entire ear! x.x) saw it at lot1 the-shop-that-sells-alot-hello-kitty-and-doraemon-things.

4. new shoes. best is those strappy kind that i can wear to anywhere.

5. doraemon vcd with soft toy. which celine has already booked! xD

6. clip-on earrings. i would be really grateful if someone can find it and tell me the place. =x

7. uh...cant think of any now. =x

2009-05-06T23:43:00.003+08:00

so many good movies that i want to watch coming soon!!
Eng Wah
angels and demons (14th may)
night at the museum 2 (21st may)
monsters vs aliens (28th may)
termination salvation (28th may)
transformers: revenge of the fallen (24th june)
ice age: dawn of the dinosaurs (4 july)
harry potter and the half blood prince (16th july)

ahhhh i cant wait!! xD

funny facts of life

2009-04-22T12:32:00.002+08:00

*the comments are not by me!! =x

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.
(Hardly seems worth it.)

If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb.
(Now that's more like it!)

The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.
(OMG)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour.
(don't do this at home. maybe at work.)

The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off.
("Honey, I'm home. What the...?!")

The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.
(What could be so tasty on the bottom of a pond?)

Butterflies taste with their feet.
(Something I always wanted to know.)

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
(I know some people like that.)

Starfish have no brains.
(I know some people like that too)

A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes.
(In my next life, I want to be a pig.)

A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death.
(Creepy.)(I'm still not over the pig)

The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field.
(30 minutes... lucky pig. Can you imagine??)

Some lions mate over 50 times a day.
(I still want to be a pig in my next life...quality over quantity)

Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people.
(If you're ambidextrous, do you split the difference?)

A cat's urine glows under a black light.
(I wonder who was paid to figure that out?)

Polar bears are left-handed
(If they switch, they'll live a lot longer.)

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.
(What about that pig??)

In 2003, there were 86 days of below-freezing weather in Hell, Michigan. Hell also sponsors a running event called "Run Thru Hell 10 mile and 4.8 mile race." Each participant is given a T-shirt that says "I Ran Thru Hell".
(i wanna go to Hell!)

In England, in the 1880's, "Pants" was considered a dirty word.
(ok. shut up you pants.)

32 out of 33 samples of well-known brands of milk purchased in Los Angeles and Orange counties in California had trace amounts of perchlorate. Perchlorate is the explosive component in rocket fuel.
(moooo. *KABOOM!*)

North Dakota has never had an earthquake.
(ok.i dont wanna go to hell. i wanna go north dakota)

The closest living relative of the t-rex is the chicken which makes the phobia 'Alektorophobia' (Fear of chickens) slightly more plausible.
(cluckcluck*ROAR!*)

A giraffe can clean its ears with its 50cm (20 in) tongue.
(mmm. yum. earwax!)

The tongue of a blue whale is as long as an elephant.
(bluewhale: where are my ears?)

the truth about cats and dogs

2009-04-17T00:28:00.001+08:00

What is a Cat?

1. Cats do what they want.
2. They rarely listen to you.
3. They’re totally unpredictable.
4. When you want to play, they want to be alone.
5. When you want to be alone, they want to play.
6. They expect you to cater to their every whim.
7. They’re moody.
8. They leave hair everywhere.

CONCLUSION: They’re tiny women in little fur coats.

What is a Dog?
1. Dogs spend all day sprawled on the most comfortable piece of furniture in the house.
2. They can hear a package of food opening half a block away, but don’t hear you when you’re in the same room.
3. They can look dumb and lovable all at the same time.
4. They growl when they are not happy.
5. When you want to play, they want to play.
6. When you want to be alone, they want to play.
7. They leave their toys everywhere.
8. They do disgusting things with their mouths and then try to give you a kiss.
9. They go right for your crotch as soon as they meet you.

CONCLUSION: They’re tiny men in little fur coat

HAHAHAHA...xD

Things girls don't realize....

2009-04-15T12:16:00.002+08:00

got this from an email from dar....xD

1. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye. (!!sure or not! o.o)

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

11. Guys are very open about themselves.

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

14. Guys love you more than you love them.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key. (get real! =x)

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.'

23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them. (not all, but most)

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. haha it's true..

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually. (it means he's going into jail for molest soon)

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs. (OH REALLY?? *hiak hiak*...)

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

---Ladies, if u don't repost this within 1 hr then you will lose the guy of your life
---Guys, if you don't repost this in one hr then you will lose the girl of your life.
Post this as: things girls don't realize

*hurhur i'm even more pro sia just post it here for everyone to see! xD

2009-04-14T00:46:00.002+08:00

haven updated for so long...found some nice jokes to share. xD

A Sunday school teacher was discussing the Ten Commandments with her five and six year olds.After explaining the commandment to "honor" thy Father and thy Mother, she asked, "Is there a commandment that teaches us how to treat our brothers and sisters?"Without missing a beat one little boy (the oldest of a family) answered, "Thou shall not kill."

ARGUMENTS A woman has the last word in any argument.Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.
FUTURE A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
MARRIAGE A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.A man marries a woman expecting her not to change, but she does.
OFFSPRING Ah, children. A woman knows all about her children. She knows about dentist appointments and romances, best friends, favorite foods, birthdays, secret fears and hopes and dreamsA man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house.

A little boy was attending his first wedding. After the service, his cousin asked him, "How many women can a man marry?" "Sixteen," the boy responded. His cousin was amazed that he had an answer so quickly. "How do you know that?" "Easy," the little boy said. "All you have to do is add it up, like the Bishop said: 4 better, 4 worse, 4 richer, 4 poorer"

2009-04-08T23:23:00.002+08:00

been planning a whole list of things to do this long weekend...was so looking forward to it...in the end something last min cropped up again...sianz...think i shall just spend this rare long weekend studying bah.

guess i just have to get used to last min getting fly aeroplane.

2009-04-05T23:48:00.002+08:00

went all the way to watch a movie at cine yesterday (but luckily just nice it was the movie i wanted to watch ie shinjuku incident by jackie chan etc.) xD the movie was only nc16 (when i seriously think it should be m18 or more loh) and it should be a horror movie instead of action film cos i really got xia dao loh. x.x shall not put spoilers here in case some of u here are planning to watch...but it was nice! ^^

then today went all the way east (to eunos) to meet my sis and bro-in-law for mj. and the best thing is i actually played games till i missed the stop and ended in kembagan! ><>

haven jubeat for so long that my hands are itchy. but dun think i'll be free anytime soon to go jubeat leh...exams coming soon le and tutors are making use of this time to give us more assignments and tests. =/ still have jap oral and skit performance during the 2 remaining TBs...AND THERE'S NO MORE TC CLASS ALREADY!! DDDD:

2009-03-30T22:16:00.003+08:00

haven updated for so long...went to watch coming soon at jp on 21st around 12am. had fun playing jubeat at the arcade till it closed. xD someone told me the movie only got 2 stars rating but it seemed quite nice leh quite scary. =x the story is about a movie inside the actual movie, then inside the fake movie it was about someone who kidnapped small kids and treat them as her own children and she digged out their eyes so that they wont see her and get scared (cos she looked like a ghost liao although she was alive).

then when the parents found her they hanged her and the fake movie ended with that woman being hanged to death with a real scary look. @@ but in the end it turned out that the woman in the story din die (cos it was based on a real story) so it was actually the actress who really died while acting. after the movie it was around 2am already but walked home from boon lay all the way back to jurong east. think by the time i reached home it was around 3am le.

then this sat (28th) i went out very early and went to cathay (again) to play l4d. super addicted!! now trying out different diffculty levels hurhur...after that went to taka's hello shop to upgrade plan and ate dinner at there de ajisen. dun know why but it seemed like there de volcano ramen extra spicy. x.x then had to go to little india for my report. walked around the place and by the time we reached the bus stop we nearly missed the last bus already heng still got the last 66. i was never so happy to see bus 66 man. TT

then on fri went to plaza sing to watch confession of a shopaholic with sis and at first i found the actress quite bimbo-like but haha it was quite funny lah. <3>

2009-03-20T20:24:00.002+08:00

listening to: 你沒想像中愛我 by 石欣卉

i dun usually list down the song i'm listening to de but this song is really emo!! even though i'm not emoing now but the way she sings it can just 撥動心弦 man...

anyway, the main point of this post is to illustrate how suay i was yesterday. i got on the bus, and barely 1 stop later some !"£$% wearing high heels knocked against my feel AND THEN stepped on it. so for a moment i only felt pain and i was like 'OUCH!' yet had to stop myself from being too loud cos i dun want ppl to think i siao or what loh. THEN the person never even turned to look or me or apologise! (okay lah maybe she din know she stepped on me) but this is damn suay loh!! and then...after kena stepped on my foot very pain right? so i hurried to find a seat...then when i sat down i realise it's WET! !"£$%^& -.-

i seriously need to start improving my jap. especially if i want to continue taking jap3 next sem.
therefore...今から、msnに日本語だけではなしてください！=x

2009-03-17T00:41:00.003+08:00

have been wanting to update my blog for a long time but i'm just toooo lazy~~but i found this nice joke on the internet. good for u guys to enjoy during a particularly bad bout of PMS or something xD

Why it's better to be a Woman!
1. We got off the Titanic first.
2. We get to flirt with systems-support men who always return our calls, and are nice to us when we blow up our computers.
3. Our boyfriend's clothes make us look elfin & gorgeous. Guys look like complete idiots in ours. 4. We can be groupies. Male groupies are stalkers.
5. We can cry and get off speeding fines.
6. We've never lusted after a cartoon character or the central female figure in a computer game.
7. Taxis stop for us.
8. Men die earlier, so we get to cash in on the life insurance.
9. We don't look like a frog in a blender when dancing.
10. Free drinks, Free dinners, Free movies ... (you get the point).
11. We can hug our friends without wondering if she thinks we're gay.
12. We can hug our friends without wondering if WE'RE gay.
13. New lipstick gives us a whole new lease on life.
14. It's possible to live our whole lives without ever taking a group shower.
15. We don't have to fart to amuse ourselves.
16. If we forget to shave, no one has to know.
17. We can congratulate our team-mate without ever touching her butt.
18. If we have a zit, we know how to conceal it.
19. We never have to reach down every so often to make sure our privates are still there.
20. If we're dumb, some people will find it cute.
21. We don't have to memorize Caddyshack or Fletch to fit in.
22. We have the ability to dress ourselves.
23. We can talk to people of the opposite sex without having to picture them naked.
24. If we marry someone 20 years younger, we're aware that we look like an idiot.
25. Our friends won't think we're weird if we ask whether there's spinach in our teeth.
26. There are times when chocolate really can solve all your problems.
27. We'll never regret piercing our ears.
28. We can fully assess a person just by looking at their shoes.
29. We know which glass was ours by the lipstick mark.
30. We have enough sense to realize that the easiest way to get out of being lost is to ask for directions.

2009-03-08T12:13:00.005+08:00

oh my...haven updated for so long. x.x i spent my recess week from 23 feb to 2nd march watching the 家好月圓 dvd. could have finished watching it in one week but like i told my sis, i only have 6 episodes left and i cant bear to watch them cos there will be no more 阿好!! D: the week after recess week i had 2 midterms, 1 show and tell session for jap and 1 essay assignment. that's why i was super guai sia and whole week never go out play loh...haven played jubeat at all for about 2 weeks le...

the jap midterms on tue was a killer (at least to me lah) but at least i heard other ppl saying that it was difficult also so we shall all die together...they said the listening section was the hardest but i think i need to use it to get marks for the other sections loh...TT then during jap class on thur we played a game that's to say something u've never done before and if the others in the group have done it they have to pass u a scrap of paper. in the end the person with the most paper is the winner (ie most no-life...) xD i think i sort of stunned ppl with this. changi airport へいったことがありません。

chiong-ed out my SEA essay which was due on fri on wed and got a sense of accomplishment! very nearly did the wrong question (cos i thought we have to decide on a question ourselves, but i had the faint impression that we were given questions to choose from) but heng i discovered it in time. =x finally, after the econs mcq test on fri i'm free!! xD rushed down to costa sands downtown east and ate the so-called traditional laksa but it's not delicious at all!! i think the traditional katong laksa at queensway is much nicer loh. then watched shutter and the 2nd time is not as scary as the first time (mainly cos i know where all the scary parts were hiak hiak...) but really loh it's still one of the nicest horror movie i've ever watched.

then on sat morning we went to escape (instead of wild wild wet, though i think i will go there next time after i've bought one of those nice swimsuits i saw in the shops) AND IT WAS DAMN FUN!! omgomg...we went to the haunted house and it was quite scary lah cos i was expecting ppl to jump out anytime and...when i'm scared i get very violent. so anyone who tries to scare me would propably have been kicked or something. =x then we went to take this ship thingy that lets u shoot water at other ppl (blaster boat or something) and i got abit wet but it was fun hoh!! we also played the flyer thing that lets u feel like superman by turning around in circles (omg dizzy) but it was comfortable cos lie down very nice to sleep with the wind blowing...

i think the highlight was the 海盜船!! it seems not very tall when u look at it but when u're actually sitting on it it's a much different thing! somemore i was sitting at the 2nd lowest row liao leh (they say the top row is actually the most scary) that when i reached the top i can actually see the ppl opposite at 180degrees!! when it went up i could feel my stomach going up too and similarly when it went down it took my stomach with it...i think i left my stomach on the floor there and forgot to take it home. x.x but it's nice leh i think next time if got the chance i will go try it again...then we went to the ferris wheel but it was okay nia...abit squeezy and not that much things to do but i took some pics from the top...

by the way on my way home from sch on fri i realised that my bun bun kena eaten by dun know who till only the chain's left nia...dun know who so evil go eat it...=( as the grand finale we went to play the blaster boat thingy again and this time i kena shot till damn wet cos got this pervert uncle type that kept shooting me! (maybe cos i wearing white sweater loh) but hello i got wear another shirt inside hoh muahaha...after that we began the long journey home...

went to dhoby at night and wanted to go jubeat de but saw alot of ppl inside...went to billy bombers for dinner for the first time and the food okay nia...i think the portions and taste at botak jones is much nicer and cheaper loh. then we went to play left4dead (super fun!!) and watched my bloody valentine 3d at 11++. the movie was scary in the sense that very gory and got alot sudden scenes...nothing much to say about the storyline except that it was abit flawed ie some parts never explain clearly or what...but overall it's nice to watch for a scare. xD

2009-02-27T02:40:00.001+08:00

bastard 淩至信 dun ever let me see u again!!

2009-02-25T14:57:00.002+08:00

my bro's gf lent me the 家好月圓 dvd for quite long but i totally forgot about it for about 2 weeks until my bro reminded me on sun night. so i started watching at 12pm on mon and it's now 3pm on wed...and i've just finished the 22nd episode. xD supposed to spend my one week break studying de worh...but dun know why i would rather spend the time watching that stupid show which has a lot of laughter and tears. but i'm not as extreme as my sis to say that every episode would cry once lah...

when i'm unhappy i tend to have the urge to eat alot of spicy food, the spicy-er and the hotter the better. my craving for volcano ramen...x.x anyway, other than learning some lame jokes from the show, i also learnt something worh...i know i've said i gotten over the crush, but some things 不事說忘就忘的...at least i know that even when i still 放不下 i know there are still ppl who are concerned about me...nobody can help me get over him except myself. in actual fact, 可能人家根本不當一回事 cos these few days i thought back...and realise that i'm actually no one special to him.

i would rather be 'THE special someone' to someone than to be 'just another friend' to someone...lol sounds confusing but nvm i can understand can liao. =D

2009-02-23T11:36:00.002+08:00

i think i need to backtrack alot...cant really remember what happened this past week! ><>

after slacking at home i went to lot1 to jubeat and learn some excel thingies. i think i forgotten everything liao actually. ._. wanted to learn so that hols easier to find job mah...3 months leh can earn alot of money. $_$ was supposed to watch a midnight horror movie de but suay suay this week dun have horror movies worh. x.x had volcano again for dinner...that's twice in a day! no wonder my stomach felt weird for the whole of sunday...TT hl tried eating volcano too even though he cant really take spicy food and he kept asking for refill of iced water! LOL the waiter must be thinking he ordered the wrong thing cos he ate till his face very red and sweat alot. =x

then kint came and joined us after he went to buy jojo's present with celine (HOHOHO!) very irritated leh while i was playing got 2 guys standing very near me and talking VERY loudly! if they shuai or what still can be forgiven lah but......=x

then on sun was supposed to go for jojo's bday celebration with jojo dek ce and kint. but due to some *ahem*ahem* i "flew them aeroplane" (celine's words, not mine xD) so instead after loitering at outram park's NE station for sometime, we had our lunch at ps and played 1 hour of left 4 dead. i think i'm seriously addicted to it already. it's very satisfying to shoot at zombies nonstop when u're in a bad mood muahahaha~i like to see them explode and the headless bodies, with the head flying off. ^^ okay too violent. but it's fun okay~

i think i'm getting abit sian of jubeat. somemore mid-terms coming liao so must stay home ~~rot~~ study more...oh and did i mention i'm going to eat volcano again with sis for dinner tonight? xD

i know i owe jojo a bday celebration! xD dun worry lah i'll buy a cake next time i see her. =x

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! ^^

2009-02-15T01:37:00.003+08:00

the cute bun bun sis gave me...stop squeezing and torturing it hoh! TT

the camera-shy ham ham

trying to wiggle out of taking pictures...

hor kena toupai-ed in the house! xD

haven really updated for some time...went to meet ce on wed to jubeat...then after playing we discovered a pet shop in lot1...we went in and saw a super nice cage! xD in the end we shared it and i 'adopted' a hamster from celine...though i adopted it now it's still living at her house. =x must go visit it sometime...and it's called puipui! cos it's the fattest among the young female hamsters liao...

then on thur went to meet max sharn and sharn brought a friend...went to eat volcano again! ^^ max couldnt even finish his normal-sized one...=x then went to challenge sharn for in the name of love, sigsig and true love...LOL he won the first song but lost the next 2...(by abit) but overall 2:1 mah! xD muahahaha i said i would boast de okay! =DDD

then on fri went to meet hl and kint at (where else? -.-) lot1 to jubeat...and kint ended up buying famous amou cookies! (oh yeah that reminds me i haven started eating yet =x) then today went to watch 'look on a star' with shu qi and andy lau in it at lido and some parts were very touching while some parts were just super funny! though i normally dun cry when watching shows i was very tempted during one part! the part where andy lau asked shuqi to sign the prenuptial agreement...in the end she said she will sign it but...she ended up crying when she thought he was sleeping...SO SAD CAN! but then if i were her i also wouldnt want to marry him after that loh. what's the point of getting married when u're already thinking of getting divored...==" and oh yeah did i mention i went to eat volcano again today? but this time got ppl treat worh! (sis are u reading this?)

after that walked to dhoby to jubeat for awhile but it was a bad experience man! dun know whether it's cos they dun know the rules or just cos those ppl who go there are just rude...one went on to play even though we tapped already...another one i think din even bother to check whether there are any credits before chionging to play...i think one thing's very true loh heard someone say it in the forums..."what's the point of being high level when u dun even have the basic courtesy to share?"

after that went to jojo's house to play her xbox...lol i think i like the guitar and the drums. =x feel like getting the guitar hero set for ds after playing but the ds set only got guitar nia...(ds mah...)

anyway, ppl's tolerance and patience have limits...i can take jokes but sometimes it can get too much too...it's okay to tease but dun make urself seem like those kind of gossips...hope u all will know what i'm talking about and dun make it necessary for me to lose my cool...

2009-02-14T02:26:00.001+08:00

happy valentine's day ppl! xD i know i haven been updating for awhile (cos i'm too lazy to, what with all the emails and facebook quizzes to do -.-) but i'll be updating later today! with cute and new pics. =D

2009-02-09T18:57:00.002+08:00

“不是你自己知道喜不喜歡就可以的，是要別人知道喜不喜歡才可以啊！”---《游龍戯鳳》

continued from sat night, after i reached home i think i went online awhile before i kena dc-ed, and surprisingly actually managed to chat with someone for quite long. i want to watch that show!! seems very fairy tale worh. xD

recently sis told me she want read more chinese books, preferably those with chinese history (remember to get my texts from me next time u come worh). these few days...thought quite alot about things. think i finally managed to get things sorted out. =)

あなたをわすれたい。。。

2009-02-08T18:49:00.003+08:00

fun days! woke up bright and early yesterday to meet chin to get my dstt and memory card (am i even supposed to say it here? o.o) anyway~there was some problems with the first one...so in the end had to meet him again to exchange for a 2nd one...but before that we went to lot1 ajisen to eat my volcano! treated hl to thank him for going with me to get the adapter and finding my tokimeki game for me (although it's all in jap and i can barely understand! LOL~=x). i upsized my volcano and here went the convo...

me: one ajisen ramen with volcano sauce and upsize.

waitress: so i repeat ur order, one ajisen with volcano sauce and one clayfish ramen...

me: yeah and upsize the ajisen ramen

waitress: O.O uh but the original one already got very big bowl of noodles le...

me: =x yeah upsize...><

and the bowl although it was the same size...but the noodles inside are really really alot!! xD like bottomless pit sia can keep digging deeper and deeper and tada! more noodles!! ^^

after that chiong-ed home so that i can meet celine downstairs at 5...had fun at xin's house lou hei-ing (LOL we did it 3 times!! x.x) usually i dun eat yusheng one but...was *kena forced to* =x i wanted to eat the crispy stuff but DEK SNATCHED WITH ME! D: haha but no lah there was plenty to go around~~ xD

then watched them play Wii fit and resident evil for awhile...was falling asleep after eating...then jojo took out her ds and i immediately chiong-ed to take mine too! =D the way home was very ulu...cos we walked around the borders of the deserted JEC. x.x

2009-02-05T02:22:00.002+08:00

been busy doing my tutorials and jubeat-ing these few days that i dun have time to audi or go pet society. D:

明明很在意，卻要假裝若無其事

明明很高興見到你，卻要掩飾笑容

明明很想在一起，卻要忘記你。。。

i knew i wont be able to sleep without writing this LOL =x.

2009-02-03T02:30:00.002+08:00

found a super cute drawing during my jap class today, but shall post it another day when i have time to draw it out... xD

我輸了。。。真的輸了。

it's the way u make me smile...

2009-02-01T20:12:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! lol =x got 2 addtional angbaos this year cos last year was the year for marriage (no lah just kidding). anyway, was in a very good mood on fri cos i found out that yeo0-san is once again in the same jap tc class as me!! hohoho if u've been following my blog u will know that yeo san is the eye candy in my jap class (poor guy~). anyway, went to jp on thur to meet kint xin and shayla and the jp extension is really big~ =O

then on fri i went to meet my mysterious scandal (aka my sis) at vivo to watch the wedding day by fann wong and chris lee. overall i think it was okay bah... some funny and cute parts but generally lame. :x before the movie we went to a hong kong cafe (forgot the name!) and i ordered something like curry chicken noodles. the bowl was very big...but it mainly consisted of douya ( ie daogei) and everyone knows how much i hate daogeis! D:

on sat i woke up bright and early (unlike kint the pig who woke up at 11+ and was nearly late!) to meet celine kint and izu at dhoby gaunt. in the end they were all late and reached around 3 while we were eating at ajisen (yes again~~xD) i had volcano ramen again while kint had 2 dorayaki, 2 crab cream thingies and veggie+daogei+meat LOL. after eating i think we playing a few more games then me celine and hl left. we went to harbour front with the intention of going to find henderson waves (been wanting to go for some time liao but i have no idea how to go). so we took a taxi to mt faber peak and walked. and walked. and walked somemore...finally we reached the bridge and here are some pics i took to show that i was really there hoh!

hey i spent a long time to reach there okay of cos must take concrete evidence to show i was there! x.x

the view of what's beyond the bridge from a safe spot cos i was too scared to go near the edge. =x

again, far from the edge. =D

finally one that's near the edge...but only trees, flats and roads worh. O.O

rested awhile on the bridge (actually i din want to leave cos i dun want to stand up and walk back again cos i will have to look at the scary heights again! 70+m above sea level okay. dun play play.) then we discovered a staircase that would lead us to a busstop! omg sia why we wasted time walking so long. TT

rushed to jp soup restaurant to meet my ma side de family for yusheng, but by the time i reach any traces of yusheng has been eliminated (not that i got eat in the first place lah haha~). after eating went back to my aunt's place to rot till about 1am then left. was feeling so tired by then that i just slept straight after i reached home...heng i took out my contacts while i was still at her place. :x

it's not the end of the world.

2009-01-27T01:42:00.002+08:00

suddenly realise actually i have so many things to blog about~k went to jp on thus (i think) to meet xin kint and ce. after jubeating we went to some jap place (was it bentai?) to eat dinner...and the following scandalous picture of kint sending a flying kiss to my dar was taken LOL. =x

after that we went to help ce look for cny clothes in various shops but somehow we rarely really went into shops to look at the clothes...in the end she only got some earrings. x.x the new jp extension is really biggggg! xD

cant remember what i did on fri, but woke up super early to meet kint dek and jojo at jp (again) cos they wanted to go book the machines when there's no ppl...but they all came late~ D:then i left to meet my sis for squash at nus and really loh it was more like a gossip session than workout session. =x was supposed to have plans after that but i was too tired so i ended up sleeping. then played mj with ma, bro and his gf and won around 10 dollars...(contribution to contacts fund).

then on new year's eve, woke up super early again cos sis and bro-in-law coming back for reunion dinner + visiting + mj session (again). played 3 rounds of mj,,,hurhur and won more than 10 dollars so these 2 days i won about $25 from mj~~hurhur and while we were playing i heard some news from sis that basically means i'll definitely be able to afford the contacts soon! xD the reunion dinner this year was abit different from past years cos i special-ordered 2 dishes, luncheon meat and ngon hiang. but in the end although she said she bought the ngon hiang but she din take it out for the dinner (then buy for what~ D:). after that everyone disappeared~pa went to work, sis and bro-in-law went to his house for another reunion dinner while bro ran to his gf house for MORE mj. so i watched tv all the way from 8 to about 1+...

then today woke up and heard the news that cck arcade is having a promotion today and tmr and it might be open...so in the end bathed and dressed up earlier than schedule then went to jubeat. =x after that chiong to my aunt's house and watched my bro and ma play mj with my aunts. but before that, something embarrassing happened again (speaking of embarrassing things, i had a marilyn monroe momemt when i was coming down the escalator in the mrt station). i went up to the 18th floor and actually rang the doorbell without looking at the number...and when an old granny and a maid came out i was wondering "hm...is this a relative i haven met before?" in the end i looked at the number and realised i was at the wrong door...(i spent a few moments panicking thinking whether was i even at the right block).

after that i kena dragged by my cousins to play big2 but luckily in the end i still won about $1.50...was supposed to go meet kint xin jojo dek at cck (AGAIN) de but in the end i last min lazy to go out. =x and and and! my cousin told me that when we went to her house for her wedding her huaband's sis said i'm beautiful!! hurhurhur~ xD

random things! (again)

2009-01-22T14:07:00.003+08:00

i think i'm falling in love with lin junjie. okay lah maybe not with him lah but his songs. especially that song which keeps playing in audi lobby. it just sounds so hyper~~puts ppl in a good mood automatically leh. anyway, been reading the book "goodnight, beautiful" by dorothy koomson these past few days and really, it's not something u should read if u dun want to make urself depressed. basically all the characters inside are abit screwed up (or maybe more than abit)...

and recently i've been receiving complaints (LOL) that i keep wearing the same clothes. basically everyone i meet tells me "eh why u always wear the same clothes ah?" and my replies are always the same: "cos i always take whatever's on top of the pile". =x but okay after cny i should have more different clothes to wear...if i bother to look for them in my wardrobe lol~oh yeah talking about clothes these few days i got quite a few new polo tees (from both sis and bro, dun know why they suddenly think i'm suitable for polo tees when i haven wore any pole tee before).

just went to pack some clothes which my sis threw to me cos she says "they are too young for meeee" but which i've left on the stairs beside my bed cos 1. i'm lazy to pack. 2. i'm lazy to sort through them to see what i want and what i dun. 3. i'm just plain lazy to put them into my wardrobe (my extra neat wardrobe! not that the neatness would last very long =x). anyway just sorted through that pile (cos my ma insists the pile on the stairs is getting bigger) and found some clothes that i actually would like =O (actually i also found some of my old clothes LOL dun know how they got there).

i cant wait for cny to come~oh yeah must thank vaious contributors for their contributions to my contacts fund through my winnings from mj muahahaha~

2009-01-21T23:34:00.002+08:00

stole this from xin dar's and jojo's blog...
1. Name a friend from A-Z.
A: andy
B: brandon
C: celine
D: dek
E: eriol
F: feon
G: gary
H: haolong (LOL repeated ones can lah hoh)
I: izu
J: jojo
K: kint
L: luke
M: meiting
N: natania
O:
P: pearlyn
Q: qunyi (i'm randomly putting in my cousins' names)
R: ruishan
S: seewah
T: tiongyan
U:
V: vivian
W: weiren (hoho my bro-in-law get a mention too)
X: xin
Y: yu ting
Z: zhao yu

2. Can R & S be together in BoyGirl relationship?
considering they are both girls... ._.

3. How is L related to you?
hmmm! my ex of 2 weeks. =x

4. Does Y know to Z?
i dun think so. one is my uni friend one is my jc friend. o.o

5. If C betrays you, will you kill him/her?
i'll kill her and then cut into many small small pieces!! lol no lah i'm not so violent. =x

6. If K steals your boyfriend/girlfriend, what will you do?
O.O if kint steals my bf...good luck to him. if he wants my girlfriend i dun min sharing. =)

7. What if B tells you that he/she has a crush on you?
considering he's my best friend whom i haven contacted for years...

8. Will you and M get into a fight?
i dun see her enough to get into a fight with her! x.x

9. Who does R have a crush on?
o.o i have no idea...my xin dar perhaps?

10. If G calls you a bitch, what will you do?
bitch-slap him (i dun know what it means but somehow it just seems appropriate)

11. What's the relationship between you and E?
penpals who became good friends.

12. Who is I's best friend?
me!! lol siao. TT

13. Who does Z likes?
how would i know when i haven seen him for so long? ._.

14. What colour does Y likes?
no idea~

15. Where does G lives?
dun know, dun care

16. Did you and C have a fight before?
too many to count LOL

17. Who is H's best friend?
according to him he has 3-4 best friends.

18. What can you say about T?
i wish i wont see him again in the near future

19. What if W tells you that he/she has a crush on you, you will...?
impossible considering he's married to my sis. (and he's so old~)

20. tag 10 people to do this quiz
lazy to sabo. =x

2009-01-19T12:42:00.003+08:00

cant really remember what happened these past few days, except that they all involved going to cck arcade LOL. on fri, was supposed to meet the zigang (in order to trade textbooks with dek) but in the end ce last min pangseh-ed (!!!) and dek was sick. so only me, xin and kint went...then on sat i went to meet kint and hl (again) at cck arcade before going to eat lunch and watch red cliff 2 (specially went orchard to watch cos SOMEONE wanted to go there to exchange his psp something something). reviews said it's not nice and i guess i have to agree. but some of the plans are really really smart lah!! okay i know the scriptwriter wasnt the one who thought of those ideas but they were REALLY REALLY SMART! xD

then on sun i woke up super early to go cycling. being the accident prone me i got a few "battle-scars" on my legs (and my butt). then when i finally went home i thought i could rest and slack for the rest of the day, but dek sms-ed me...initially i told him i'm not free (cos i had a date with my bed) but since we dun really have any other days available i just dragged my lazy self out...so i thought "aiyah since out already shun bian go meet xin they all for arcade (twice in one day!!)". so after meeting dek (LOL i felt like i was passing something illegal =x) i went to xin dar's office to gossip gossip (MUAHAHAHAHA~).

actually hoh, wasnt feeling well in the morning already but i kept tahan-ing cos i thought it's my usual flu. and my primary reason for going arcade was to lvl up my card...but in the end i left without playing a single game of jubeat!! x.x cant really remember how i got home eventually but it was damn cold~~i thought after eating my usual flu med it will get better but this morning when i woke up i began to experience my usual signs of fever (cough, runny nose, muscle ache) this reminded me that my annual high fever haven come yet...(yes i have a high fever every year for some reason). just pray that if i'm going to have a fever i can recover before cny (i still wanna eat my new year goodies de...D:)

now i'm going to have the very enjoyable task of unpacking all my new year stuff and somehow squeeze everything into the wardrobe and the not-so-enjoyable task of clearing out the old stuff~~

2009-01-15T02:23:00.002+08:00

i guess those feelings and thoughts i've been keeping buried inside me for the past 7 months finally caught up with me...i dun know why all the memories started popping up all of a sudden...perhaps it was cos i used to spend all special days with u?

i still remember in the early days, i was so happy that i felt i was floating on clouds. nothing could bring me down. every morning, i would wake up with a smile, even before remembering the reason why i was so happy. then i would go to sch and wait for u (i still remember reaching sch at the ungodly hour of 630am, 1hr before sch starts) and when u finally came, usually with ur group of friends, i would pretend not to notice and be my usual self (which is acting cool)...

we would make use of any time we could to meet up, sometimes just being together, talking and doing nothing. i always thought this would be enough, to keep us happy. i remember even before we got together, there was one night when i was on my way home from west coast park where i went for guides bbq alone. i passed by a particularly dark patch and i got so scared that i called u just to chat, just to hear someone's voice. no idea why but that particular memory somehow concludes my image of u.

i remember going to west coast park with u, sitting on the grass playing card games, attempting to fly the kite, lying there looking up at the sky. i remember spending christmas eve camping at east coast park, watching the sea and listening to its sounds while i slept. counting the stars, looking out at the sea. in the last few months, i told u i wanted to build sandcastles at the beach and u promised me we would...but we never did. i remembered the first time i went to meet ur family, how nervous i was, worrying whether they would like me or not.

but mostly, those memories that are embedded deepest in my mind are those of special days, valentine's days, ur birthdays, my birthdays, christmases and new years. our first christmas together, our first new year, first birthdays, first valentine's day...i guess that's what provoked the memories. especially when for the countdown this year, i went to the exact same place we went to last year with our maple friends. that day, as i walked along the same road, remembering everything, with almost the exact same ppl as last year, i couldnt help but remember last year, remember u. like i once told celine, for some reason i cant really remember much from the past 2 years of my life. i dun know what i was doing, i cant even really recall what i did during my jc days.

new year's eve, as i watched the fireworks exploding in front of my eyes, i wondered whether u're watching them too, whether u're remembering us. while my mind at that time was filled with memories, i tried hard to act happy, to pretend that nothing's wrong but i couldnt. memories cant be completely erased that easily...i wish all we had were bad memories so that i can just forget everything but i cant cos no matter what, 我們也曾經幸福過...

as much as i wish that things could have remained that way forever, we all know it's impossible...soon things started getting ugly, and the worst thing is i dun know what i could have done to make them better. somehow it seemed that whatever i did or said was wrong. eventually, i just got tired of explaining myself...shouldnt u be the one who trusted me, who defending me no matter what? shouldnt u be the one stopping my tears instead of being the one to cause them? i told myself that it would get better, that no one ever said it was easy to keep a relationship going. so i kept waiting for things to get better. but no, in the end they just got worse and worse, with u pushing my limits to see how far u could go before i finally snapped.

soon, i got used to being hurt by ur words and actions...and i started wondering "would u do this to me if u really treasure me?" how can u bear to say all those things when u knew how badly they would hurt me? u may say u din mean it, u said them in a fit of anger, but would u say them if u never thought of them? and i've always hated being lied to, yet u can blatantly deny doing something when we both know u did. but whatever, 一切都過去了...u were my best friend and perhaps someday, u will be again. haven contacted u for almost 6 months, 你最近還好嗎?

i still remember last year my birthday, u werent here to celebrate it with me...but nvm cos i thought we would always have time to celebrate a belated one, perhaps celebrate both birthdays together. i never thought we would run out of time...but i guess something that clued me in was that night, on the eve of my birthday, while i was celebrating with my maple friends, 我沒想像中那么想你...

i look for perfection in relationships, but that's not to say that the person must be perfect, or that it must be without arguments. just that 彼此真心對待...was it too much to ask for? now that i've started having feelings for someone else again, i cant help but hesitate...感覺是對了，可是他也和我一樣嗎? i dun think so...

the feelings may have been numbed but the memories wont be forgotten so fast...especially 32 months worth of memories...and if u count in the time before we got together, it would be far more than that...so if i seem distracted during valentine's day, my birthday, or a particular day in june, dun worry it's just me stoning...

2009-01-14T00:37:00.002+08:00

another quiz...lol so many updates today. =x

1.What do you think of me, Windows Media Player?
Song: because i'm a girl (korean)
Comment: lol 50-50 mah either girl or guy what. x.x

2. Will I have a happy life?
Song: 下雨天
Comment: whoa sounds bad. o.o

3. What do my friends really think of me?
Song: 不作你的朋友
Comment: wa thanks sia! -.-

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
Song: 童年的時光機
Comment: wa very helpful. ._.

5. What does [insert significant other…Joo JI Hoon!] think of me?
Song: 小酒窩
Comment: i got jiu wo meh? o.o

6. How can I make myself happy?
Song: 我還想他
Comment: eee means what? o.o

7. What should I do with my life?
Song: 梁山伯與祝麗葉
Comment: huh O.O

8. Why must life be so full of pain?
Song: i my me mine
Comment: ................................

9. How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?
Comment: lol wth?? i wish i could skip this question. ==" (actually, i am LOL)

10. Will I ever have children?
Song: 決別詩
Comment: eee i want children!! TT

11. Will I die happy?
Song: 月牙彎
Comment: o.o? not helpful...

12. Can you give me some advice?
Song: 不得不愛
Comment: lol o.o

13. What do you think happiness is?
Song: 對的人
Comment: haha finally one that sounds logical...

14. What's your favourite fetish?
Song: 想你
Comment: what's fetish? o.o

15. Will I get far in life?
Song: crush
Comment: means what?? o.o

16. How do my friends see me?
Song: 彩虹
Comment: yay they see me as rainbow LOL

17. Where will i get married?
Song: 倒帶
Comment: .............

18. What is my best friend's theme song?
Song: 退後
Comment: huh ._.

19. What is the story of my life?
Song: 一個人生活
Comment: wa this is bad!! x.x

20. What is/was high school like?
Song: teardrops on my guitar
Comment: lol i din even know of this song during my sec sch days o.o

21. How can i get ahead in life?
Song: 只對你有感覺
Comment: O.O

22. What is the best thing about me?
Song: always online
Comment: LOL wth??? x.x

23. How is today going to be?
Song: 如果能在一起
Comment: hm....

24. What song describes my parents?
Song: 醉赤壁
Comment: that reminds me, i haven watch red cliff2 yet. =x

25. my grandparents?
Song: 不想懂得
Comment: hm? o.o

26. How is my life going?
Song: 夜曲
Comment: o.o

27. What song will they play at my funeral?
Song: 心願便利貼
Comment: (wa so fast think of funeral liao)

28. How does the world see me?
Song: 情非得以
Comment: lol i WISH ah. x.x

29. What is my signature dancing song?
Song: 稻香
Comment: lol...

30. What do I think my current theme song is?
Song: 楓
Comment: o.o

31. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Song: say yes
Comment: O.O??

32. What do I really want from life?
Song: forbidden love
Comment: eeeee no i dun want that!!! =OOOO

33. What should I do to help others?
Song: 在你身邊
Comment: lol okay. =x

34. What should I do to succeed in life?
Song: 暗號
Comment: lol give signals to succeed? o.o

35. What should i do to help myself?
Song: 小手拉大手
Comment: i have small hands.

36. What is my one most important goal in life?
Song: 一首歌的時間
Comment: ...........

37. What do I get the most pleasure from?
Song: 牛仔很忙
Comment: so i shall become a cowboy? o.o

38. What do people assume when they first look at me?
Song: when u're gone
Comments: o.o

39. What Will be a big challenge in life for me?
Song: oops i did it again
Comments: LOL. TT

40. Am I a good boyfriend/girlfriend?
Song: 痛快
Comments: i shall assume that means good~~

random thoughts

2009-01-13T20:59:00.003+08:00

suddenly had the impulse to write an essay...no lah actually was inspired by ppl. cos lastrina wrote on her facebook wall about marriages... how seriously do ppl take relationships actually? from virtual ones to real life ones...is it just something to cure loneliness or to boost their ego? (the "hey someone likes me!" kind) from a real life pov...i've always thought that marriage means forever, really the 'till death do us part' kind. if so, why are there so many cases of divorce? o.o

cant help but remember a joke...imagine there is a department store that 'sells' husbands. it allows women to go from lvl1 to 6 or 7, cant remember, looking for their ideal partner. the catch is, u're not supposed to go back to a lvl once u've left it. lvl1 has all those men who knows how to help in housework, lvl2 has those who not only helps in housework but are also very caring, so on and so forth. meaning their good qualities increase from each lvl lah. so my point is...many ppl go in and came out without finding someone. some settle for what they do not really want but cos they do not want to be alone, something's better than nothing mah.

what's the point of 'settling' for someone whom u know is not what u really want? u wont be happy cos he/she's not ur ideal partner, and u would always feel like something's missing. it wont be pleasant for him/her either cos they're always the 2nd best. who knows one day if u meet someone who's ur ideal partner u wont run away with them? there's a saying "marriage is not finding someone u can live with (means can tolerate), but someone whom u cant live without." isnt it very true meh? the number of ppl whom u can live with is confirm greater than those u cant live without. how many ppl can truly say "oh without xxxx i'll DIE" lol. =x but really lah, nobody will die. it's just the feeling that "wa i'll definitely die loh". -.-

how many ppl can say "i love u" and really mean it? it's ridiculous how many ppl are abusing these 3 words. when u misuse them, the one time that u really really want to express how u feel truly u would feel that these 3 words just arent enough. it's hard to get a relationship going as u get to know each other better and know their bad habits/weaknesses etc. how strong does a love have to be to withstand such tests?

and in virtual world...i was actually quite against such things. like in maple, majority of the players are kids loh yet they can get married in-game. x.x and...it's easy to get married or get divorced. spreading bad morals much? o.o yeah i understand these are just games...but it's still ppl who are playing them right?

aiyo type till i also forgot what was my main point liao. suan le...x.x

*wish upon a star*

finally an update! (after 3 months...)

updates on The Hangout!

birthday plans!

first post of the year~

tw trip...?

busy weekend...x.x

enlightenment...

revival of the blog...

lots of spoilers!

my shopping trip today...

shopping shopping!

shopping shopping~

final destination 4 (spoilers ahead! :X)

shopping/wishlist

sick again x.x

Nao sama <3333!

依然是朋友？

this just goes to show...

happy national day singapore!

02/08/2009

high tea @ pan pacific hotel

hurhurhur

shopping shopping~

list of baby names...xD

this post shall be on...

to the nice girls out there...

i'm in love!!!

*edited!

funny facts of life

the truth about cats and dogs

Things girls don't realize....

it's the way u make me smile...

random things! (again)

random thoughts

wish upon a star